Alone...and happy.

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"Yes SB?" Nicki asked. Tears streamed down her face because she could tell in his voice that this wasn't going to be good.
"I...I...I don't know. I'm not too sure you know who you love. I'm not going to sit here and wait while you get to choose between two guys. Either way, you win and one of us losses. I don't want to lose and I'm not taking the risk."
Nicki stared at SB as he walked upstairs and began packing his things. She followed him and rested herself on the frame of his door while watching him pack. Still speechless. She thought to herself..."He's right. Either way I win. But I don't deserve to break one guys heart because they both mean the world to me." she made a decision. She finally spoke to Safaree.
"Your right."
He looked up at her waiting for her to continue. So she did.
"It's not fair to either you or Drake. You both mean to much to me to hurt either one of you. I want nothing more than a friendship from both of you from here...just please don't leave me Safaree." she wiped her tears but felt confident in her decision as keeping them both as friends. She couldn't do this any longer, she couldn't keep hurting them. She knew it would take time to look at both of them as friends again, but it would be worth it.
Safaree walked over to her as he wiped the tears from her face. He pulled her into his chest and he held onto her...as a bestfriend.
Nicki grabbed her phone as she dialed Drake's number, still in Safaree's arms holding back tears.
"Hello?" his voice sounded nervous.
"I'm coming over"
He was confused because it had only been an hour since he walked out of her house.
"Ok" was all Drake could reply. She hung up the phone and looked at SB with a soft smile while grabbing her purse. "I'm proud of you Nic." he said while watching her walk out. She turned before closing the door behind her "I love you."
Safaree knew this was for the best. It hurt his heart but in due time he knew things would go back to normal, they always did. He felt as if this were a sign from god that they need to remain bestfriends...and that was his plan from now on.
On the other hand, Nicki pulled up to Drake's house. She sent a text saying "Come outside" she didn't bother coming to the door because she didn't want this to be long. She was saying goodbye to Drake as a lover. It hurt her heart but needed to be done. He walked Drake walk down the driveway while she stood up leaned against her car, already fighting back the tears. Drake leaned on the car next to her waiting for her to speak.
"I...." her voice was cracking from her crying. He waited for her to finish.
"You and Safaree mean too much for me to risk a relationship with either one of you..." she took a deep breathe and continued "...I'm saying goodbye to you as a lover, I'm not risking this anymore. I'd rather be alone than hurt the two men that mean the most to me." Drake blankly stared at her, he understood her decision and she could see that in his eyes. "Are you gonna speak Drake?" Nicki asked.
"Always here Nic. I'm proud of you." she looked up at him with a weird look on her face. "What?" he asked.
"Nothing...it's just...Safaree said the same thing to me when I told him that..."
"Because we both care for you Onika. We aren't going anywhere. This is going to take some adjusting but I'm willing to do whatever it takes, as long as your in my life. I love you"
Nicki's heart felt warm, this is exactly what should have happened months ago, it's happening now and all she can do is accept it.
"I love you."
She hugged drake as he kissed her forehead. Drake was leaving within the next two weeks to go on tour for Take Care so she knew she wouldn't be seeing him for months straight. They made this hug a long and powerful one. Once they released, Nicki said nothing more. She got in we car and drove away while Drake watched from his driveway. Nicki started to think to herself: it's funny, at the begging off all of this, I was sad and alone. Months later, I'm walking away from love..happy and alone. I don't need to find love, it will find me.
She pulled up to her house and opened the door to see Safaree asleep on the couch. She walked in his room to see all his stuff clothes back in this closet. She smiled. Nicki walked to her room and layed in her big bed. Yes she was alone in this giant bed, but that's because she deserves all the extra room to toss around and stretch her legs. Because..she IS Nicki Minaj. She giggled to herself from the thought as she held her pillow and drifted to sleep.

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ANYWAYS, I'm ending the story here. It's been a long fun experience but there isn't much more to say! I may add ONE LAST CHAPTER about how everything is going for Nicki, Safaree, and Drake months later..I will do this depending on the amount of feedback I get on this chapter. ATLEAST 20 comments on here people! You can write to my twitter as well: @DeenaMinaj
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Truth be told: Part 2

This chapter begins excatly where the chapter before ended. Excuse all typos & enjoy!

Those words hit Drake like he was standing in front of a train. BOOM.
He heard her words loud and clear, he just didn't know how to react. Nicki released her hand from Safaree's as she stared into Drake's eyes trying to get a reaction of what he was thinking. Nothing, she got nothing. Safaree knew that Drake probaly wanted to speak to Nicki alone, he grabbed his phone and jacket to leave the condo, giving them alone time. He told Nic earlier in the night that if it got awkward he was going to leave, so she understood. She knew Safaree hate being put in those positions.
Safaree stood up and turned to Nicki.
Safaree: "BC-2 wanted me to come over to visit him while he's in town. So I'm gonna go to his place for a few hours. I'll call you a little later, bye Nic."
Nicki: "Ok have fun baby."
The room became awkward when she said the word "baby." She forgot that Drake was still sitting there listening to everything. Safaree started to head for the door, but he turned and spoke to Drake before walking out.
Safaree: "We fam, always."
Drake turned around and looked into Safaree's eyes.
Drake: "Always man, take care."
Safaree smiled at his reaction then winked at Nic as he walked out, locking the door behind him. Nicki and Drake sat at two seperate ends of the couch, completely silent. A flashback popped into Drake's head:

"And the winner for the best video collab is........NICKI MINAJ AND DRAKE, MOMENT 4 LIFE."
The crowd went wild when Nicki and Drake stood up and hugged eachother. She hugged SB and Lil Wayne then made her way to the stage with Drake behind her. Once she grabbed the award, Nicki spoke first.
"Wow...I never know what to say at these things, because it still hasn't hit me how honored and blessed I am. I love my team, I love my family, I love my barbz, I love everyone who told me I can, and I love everyone who has told me I can't..because every word has gotten me where I am. Thank you to EVERYONE for EVERYTHING. I am honored..I can't even begin with names because I would be here all night *chuckles* This is my moment 4 life. MWAH." The crowd went wild. Drake grabbed Nicki's hand which made them scream even louder. He went to speak after Nicki.
"I am blessed I got to make this song with such a beautiful person. And the fact that we won a VMA for it makes me even more blessed. I just want to thank my team, my family, and every single one of my AMAZING supporters. Love you all!! YMCMB. Oh and Nicki..." he turned straight at her and looked her in the eyes on stage. Everyone was silent waiting for what was going it to happen. "Tonight, it's happening sooner than later." Nicki's eyes grew large with shock and excitment and he reached in and kissed her on stage. He picked her up as they waved to everyone and walked on stage. The crowd was going WILD. The host couldn't even speak or calm them down. SB's smile was HUGE, he was the only one that really knew what was going on and he was more than happy. Once they sat back in their seats, Nicki was too shy to speak or even look up because she knew everyone was staring. Drake leaned over and whispered "I love you." in her ear.

The memory replayed in Drake's mind as tears streamed down his face. Nicki still sat there silently waiting for something to say or waiting for Drake to speak. Drake stood up and began heading for this door. This made Nicki's heart race. She didn't want things to end like this.
"Wait." she said. Finally breaking the silence. Drake turned around, waiting for Nicki to continue.
"Can you just sit....please?" Nicki's voice was cracking, and Drake knew that meant she was going to cry. He sat back on the couch so Nicki wouldn't cry.
"Is it becuse we lost our baby?" he asked. Nicki looked up at him confused and in shock. "What?" she replied. "Are you moving on from me...because we lost our baby?" Drake wiped his tears and watched Nicki as she walked over to the couch she was sitting on and moved next to him. She gently finished wiping the tears from his face. "Of course not Drake." she looked down and began wiping her own tears. When she thought about to, she really had NO reason who she gave up on Drake, she doesn't even know if she's really over him...she just knew that Safaree was always there with her and that's who made her happy.
"What is it? What did I do then?" Drake asked. Nicki didn't know what to reply because Drake did nothing wrong. The fact that he asked that question changed everything, it confused her. She was so sure that SB was the one for her..but now her mind was clouded with guilt and confusion. She broke down.
"I don't know Drake. I don't know."
Drake couldn't sit there any longer and listen to Nicki give him mixed signs. He grabbed his things and began walking out, Nicki chased behind him.
"Drake I really don't know, just stop please" she was crying and pulling his arm. He opened the door and turned to her as she slammed into his chest crying.
"I'm not mad Nicki. If you don't remeber, I was the one who fucked up this relationship in the first place, I understand. I just think we are both confused right now, especially you. I know what I want, and it's to be with you. But you on the other hand..You don't know what you want. And I don't want to pressure you into making a decision right now. I can see it in your eyes Nic, your confused. I just want you to think about it, call me when you have your mind is clear and we can talk it through. I love you, okay?" he kissed Nicki on the forehead and walked to his car. Nicki stook at the front door watching him leave. She gave him a wave as he drove off. She closed the door and walked into the condo, she picked up her phone and texted Safaree. "Come home soon please." She just wanted to clear her mind and she didn't want to be alone. "Already on my way, be there in 10." he replied. Little did she know, he had been thinking about the situation the whole time, Safaree wasn't okay with the way things were going, he thought about it, and made a tough decision.
He walked in the condo to see Nicki on her phone still crying. This made his heart hurt, but he still made a decision that he was going to follow through with.
"Nic I need to talk to you." He said. They both knew this didn't sound good....

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Truth be told: Part 1

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Things were going good for Nicki and Safaree. Nobody really knew they were a "thing" except their close friends. Drake was still clueless to this, and Nicki was still a bit afraid to let him know. Therapy had really been helping Nicki get back on her feet, she started working in the studio again, and really feeling back to normal. The thoughts of telling Drake about Safaree ran through her mind daily. Drake was finally getting time off from his busy schedule, which meant he would be around Nicki more than usual so Nicki knew she had to tell Drake what was going on. As these thoughts ran through her mind, she noticed her phone started ringing. It was Drake. She knew it was Drake because she had a special ringtone for him from when they were dating, that she never changed. "This is my moment, I've waited all my, life I can telll it's time..." as her phone went off, she looked at SB sitting next to her on the couch, snatched the phone, and answered it.
Nicki: "Hello?"
Drake: "Hi Nic!!"
She loved how excited he always sounded when he wanted to talk to her.
Nicki: *giggling* "Hi Drizzy Baby"
Drake: "I'm home, I finally have time off! I want to see you as soon as possible, when works for you? And how is everything? How are you feeling?"
Nicki: "I'm doing alot better Drake, I'm glad I've been going to thearpy because it's helped. And I'm glad you got a thearapist because I can tell it's been helping you too. But I want you to come over at around 7:30 tonight because I wanna discuss some things with you, is that good with you?"
Drake: "Yeah of course baby, I'll see you then Nic."
Nicki: "Okay bye hunn!"
Nicki hung up the phone but couldn't help to stare at the floor for a few minutes. The fact Drake called her baby just rushed all the old memories back into her head. She stared at the floor remebering all the goods, bads, ups, and downs they had together until SB shook her shoulders to get her out of her daze.
"What was that all about?" SB asked. But before Nicki could respond, she stared into SB's eyes, remebering that he is the man who is there, he is the man she loves. This brought tears of joy to her eyes but confusion into SB's face. "Helllo? The fuck is going on Nic?" SB asked.
"Nothing, sorry I was in a daze." Nic responded while shaking her head and snapping in her own face. This made SB laugh. "Well obviously, but why is Drake coming over? What do you gotta discuss?" he replied.
"I'm gonna tell him about us." The room fell silent because they both knew this wasn't going to be good.
"Well I don't be there for that." SB replied. Nicki looked at him like he was crazy. "Don't even play." Nicki replied. SB just took a deep dramatic breathe and crossed his arms. Nicki cuddled up with him as she started speaking.
I never thought I was going to ever be the same again Safaree."
Once she spoke those words, SB knew she was referring to the mis-carriage and he knew it had been on her mind.
"I know Nic." SB replied while rubbing the side of her arm and kissing her forehead.
"Maybe God just doesn't want me to have kids."
"Nic what are you talking about?" SB knew Nicki always over-thinks situations.
"It's not like it's the first time I've let go of a child..."
This made the room silent. SB forgot all about the abortion Nicki had when she was a teenager. She continued to speak as her phone started cracking which is what happens before she cries.
"To concieve you and leave you, the concept alone seems evil. I'm trapped in my own concious."
The lyric played through both of their heads. Nicki sat up on the couch now angry.
"How the FUCK would anyone know if I was ready to take on a child? How the FUCK did they convince me to take away my precious baby? How the FUCK could I have been so stupid?"
Safaree watched as Nicki beat herself up with questions. He knew that anything he said wouldn't affect Nicki right now, she layed her head in her hands and fell into SB's chest as tears streamed down her face.
"This....this is my karma. I took my baby away from the world, so God took my baby away from me. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."
SB grabbed Nicki's chin and lifted up her face so he was looking her into the eyes.
"I love you Onika. I do. You're a good person. Please stop beating yourself up over things that aren't in your control."
He wiped Nicki's tears and watched the words come out of her mouth "I love you babe."
Both Nicki & SB went their seperate ways to shower and get ready for Drake to come.

Few hours later:
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
Nicki took a deep breathe and looked at Safaree one more time before opening the door.
Drake fell straight into Nicki's arms, picking her up and hugging her as tight as possible.
"Ahhhhh" Nicki screamed with laughter. She loved Drake so much, but she didn't love him the way she loved Safaree. "Hi babygiiiiiirllll!" Drake screamed while putting her down. He had the biggest smile on her face after seeing her, this made Safaree feel bad because Drake had no idea what was going on.
"Sup SB man, how ya been?"
"Good man, glad to see you doing so good."
They dapped eachother as they all sat on the couch and had small talk and caught up with eachother.
An hour passed and Nicki still hadn't told Drake the news but Drake had no problem bringing it up.
"So Nic, what was it you had to discuss wtith me? You always wait until the very last minute when you have something important to say." Nicki giggled as she looked at the floor, "he knows me too well" she thought to herself.
She turned to Drake but scooted closer to Safaree.
"Well...Drake..." she grabbed Safaree's hand as she interwined their fingers.
"I'm in love with Safaree Samuels, I couldn't be more happy with this man."
The room fell silent.....

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IN love.

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The feelings have been different between Safaree and Nicki since he admitted to being in love with her in their last therapy session. Thing we're just different..not in a good or bad way, just different. Ever since Safaree said he was in love with Nicki, Nicki has been looking at everything in a new perspective. Everything he did, she knew he did it because he was in love with her. Every therapy session, every meal he cooked, every story he told, every venting session they had, every word he spoke, he did it because he loved her. And the more he did it, the more Nicki started to fall in love back. It wasn't long until Nicki had to tell Safaree how she felt, she made sure it was just perfect when she told him.
It was a late night when Safaree came home after going out with his boys, Nicki had Lauren and Candi over for a girls night, but she made sure they were long gone by the time Safaree got home. He walked in with Nicki sitting on the couch. She had 2 glasses of champange and chocolate covered strawberries on the table with one of SB's shirts on and booty shorts, letting her natural curls fall to her shoulders. Once SB walked in, he immdiately threw a smile on his face and he sat next to Nicki.
"What's going on?" He asked.
She made herself comfortable in his arms and he sipped on the champange and held her with his other arm. They ate chocolate strawberries together until Nicki spoke on what the speical occasion was.
She bit her lip and rubbed his chest as she looked up at him, making sure this is the man she loved and the man she wanted to be with, she began spilling her heart out.
"You've been with me since day one..and I want you to be with me until my last day. Safaree Samuels my love for you has only grown. We had a beautful friendship that blossomed into true love. I love you, I'm in love with you. In your arms in where I'd like to stay if that's okay with you..." she paused her speech to look up at Safaree and read his reaction. Tears of joy were falling down his face, with her soft fingers wiping them away. He smiled as he reached himself down to kiss her, she deepened the kiss and she held on to him. He picked her up, not releasing the kiss, and walked her into her bedroom, laying her down as layed over her kissing on her neck and ear. She removed his shirt..he removed hers. The process continued until they were both completely naked on top of eachother. Safaree started moving down Nicki's body with his lips. Kissing every spot he possibly could. Once he reached her thighs, Nicki strapped her legs around his back, waiting for the pleasure she was going to recieve from the love of her life. Once his tounge hit her, she couldn't help to let out a loud moan. This made Safaree giggle because he knew this was what she was waiting for..and he had no doubt he wasn't going to please her. He rotated his tounge all around her listening to her moan and scream his name until he reached her spot. He moved his tougne in a faster circular motion as he centered in on her spot, he nibbled and sucked and licked until Nicki's body couldn't hold on anymore. By the way her moans changed and became faster, that's when Safaree knew she was ready. She screamed out that she loved him before she came completely wet. Safaree cleaned up her mess as he reached in his jean pocket for a condom. Nicki's body was weak, but she wasn't giving up until she gave him the pleasure he deserved. Safaree slipped on the condom and thrusted hiself into her, listening to her scream and enjoying her tightness around him. He immdiately began at a fast pace and slammed into Nicki while he watched her scream and toss around all over the bed. Not pulling out, Nicki switched him on his back and she got on top. It was her turn to give him what he wanted. He slowly pushed herself in and out of him, teasing Safaree and enjoying his moans. Once she knew he couldn't take the teasing anymore, she flipped her body around and began riding him as fast as she could. This drove Safaree crazy and after a few short minutes he couldn't help but burst inside of her. She jumped off and kissed all of Safaree's sweet spots while she watched him fall asleep, he rubbed all over her body as they reminded eachother they love eachother..they are IN love with eachother..but Nicki couldn't help but think what would happen with her relationship with Drake if she commited to Safaree. These thoughts made her fall right to sleep, hoping her dreams would give her some answers to the questions that ran through her mind.

Session 4.

The past two thearpy sessions had been excatly like the first one. Nothing. Nicki wasn't saying a word, the only thing that filled the room were her sobs. But according to the thearpist, this was normal. The thearapist (Dr. Brielle Williams) warned Safaree that it will take a couple of sessions until Nicki is comfortable with opening up, and that's excatly how it was. Nicki was finally getting comfortable with her new thearapist and she knew that she was ready to trust her.
Nicki woke up on a beautiful Tuesday morning, ready for her weekly appointment with Dr. Williams. This was her fourth appointment and she was finally feeling comfortable and trusting with her thearapist. Once they got to her office, Safaree walked Nicki into Dr. Williams office then usually waited outside or got food until she called him. But this time was different. Safaree kissed Nicki's forehead and began to walk out, then she grabbed his arm and pulled him back. "Stay with me." she said. He looked at her then looked over at the therapist and took a seat next to Nicki in the office. He could tell she was scared but he would be there every step of the way. The session soon began.
"Hello Nicki, Hi SB. How are you guys today?" Dr. Williams asked. Small talk started to fill the room until the serious questions began. "So Nicki, talk to me. How have you been feeling?" Dr. Williams looked up innocently at Nicki hoping to finally get an answer out of her this time. "It's just really difficult for me to accept that something that was supposed to be everything is now gone forever. She was going to be my world. I failed her."
Tears started falling down Nicki's face and all Safaree could do was sit there quietly and watch. He had never seen Nicki talked about the situation yet and this was all new for him. He turned to Dr. Williams and waited for her to say something to make Nicki feel better. Dr. Williams finally spoke. "You didn't fail anyone, you need to come to realization with this Nicki or you will never be able to come over the situation." Nicki grabbed a few tissues and replied back to her with an angry tone. "Who was the one who drank while pregnant? Me. Who was the one who stressed herself out, not even thinking about the conseqences it could have on my child? Me. I failed, I killed this innocent baby who did nothing wrong to me. I could have brought a new life into the world but instead I ruined a life. She could have changed the world, she could have changed my world."
There was alot built up in Nicki that needed to be released. Both Dr.Williams and Safaree could see that. Dr.Williams talked to Nicki and gave her advice and a shoulder to cry on. They were now one hour into their session, and Dr. Williams suggested they stayed as long as they needed until things were cleared up, instead of leaving them they way they were. Safaree was quiet the whole time. Didn't say a word, didn't even check his phone or adjust his seat. Just sat there. Tears came to his eyes and he finally spoke.
"Onika? Do you realize seeing you like this breaks me in two? I love you Nicki. I know we say that to eachother all the time, but I love you. I'm in love with you. You're my world and I can't stand to see you broken. It's killing me." Tears were now falling down Safaree and Nicki's face as he continued. "I know you think this is your fault, but you were the best mother you could have been these past 6 months. You dropped everything when you found out you had a baby on the way. Maybe God took her back because he knew you weren't ready? Did you ever think about that Nicki? Just don't do this anymore, seeing you like this....I can't..." Safaree couldn't finish his speech due to his tears. Nicki walked out of her seat and sat on his lap as he laid on her chest crying. With her chin on his head, she did the same. Dr. Williams said nothing because this was excatly what she was waiting for.
Safaree sat back up and spoke to Dr. Williams "I love this girl, I really do." he looked up at Nicki while wiping his tears. "I love you."
Something about his words seemed so different. The way he said those 3 words, Nicki could feel them hit her heart.
"I think we should leave our session off at that. We can all have time to think about everything before we come in next week and discuss how we feel. Especially you two. Stay safe and I will see you next Tuesday." Dr. Williams smiled as them both while walking out of the office. "Let's go." Safaree said while walking out with Nicki behind him. They hopped in their Range Rover as Safaree started driving back to their home. The car ride home was silent. They both didn't know what to say, still mixed in with their thoughtd of what happened at the session. Nicki's phone lit up with a text from Drake.
Drake: "Hey Nic. Everything okay? I miss you, I'm praying for you"
Nicki: "Thank you Drake. Everything is okay, therapy is helping."
Drake: "Good, I will call you tommorow. Goodnight Onika"
Nicki: "Goodnight Aubrey."
Once she sent the last message, she looked up to see Safaree was pulling in the drive-way. Nicki hopped out of the car and walked into the kitchen. She made her and Safaree sandwiches and walked into the living room handing Safaree his sandwich. They ate them togheter while watching Judge Judy, still not saying a word. Once Nicki finished her meal, she threw her plate in the trash, walked over to Safaree, hugged him and kissed him on he cheek. Without any words being spoken she walked into her room to call it a night. She had alot of thinking to do..alot of BIG decisions were needed to be made.

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After-math of Destruction.

The next morning was heart-breaking. There wasn't a sound in the condo. It was just starting to hit Safaree and Nicki that the baby is gone before it was even born. Nicki's room was still locked and she still wasn't responding to anyone, so Safaree decided to cook her breakfast, hoping the smell would make her come out of her room. Safaree made Nicki's favorite breakfast: cheesy scrambled eggs, chocolate chip pancakes, turkey sausage, bacon, and a fruit salad. He sat on the couch waiting for Nicki to come out of her room, then his phone lit up with a twitter post from Nicki. It read:
"Goodmorning barbz. Yesterday was a horrifying day. I had a mis-carriage. I lost my baby while I was 6 months pregnant, she meant everything to me. And yes, it was a girl. Nobody knew that I knew the sex of the baby, I wanted to keep it a suprise. I am heart-broken she has left my life. Just trying to see the positivty in every negative situation, it's very difficult. Be thankful to open your eyes to another day. Love you TM, xo. -HB."
The tweet brought tears to Safaree's eyes, but he quickly wiped them way and set down his phone when he heard Nicki come from around the corner.
"Nicki! Goodmorning!" Safaree said. He tried sounding as heart-felt as possible. He was going to be everything to make her feel better. The first thing he noticed were her swollen eyes from crying and the frown that was stuck on her face. He has seen Nicki at her absolute worse..but it's never been this bad.
"I made us breakfast Nic." he started moving all the food from the stove to the kitchen table.
"Thank you Safaree." Nicki replied in a very quiet low tone, her voice was crackly and it almost sounded like she was whispering.
Once they sat to eat, there was no conversastion going on, which was un-normal for the two. Safaree didn't know what to say, he felt like anything he said would relate back to the baby, which was the last thing he wanted to bring up. He looked at Nicki to see she was playing with her food on her plate, not really eating much. She got up from the table as she started walking up the stairs to the nursery room they had just finished designing, Safaree followed right behind her. If he was going to be there for Nicki like he promised Drake and like the good bestfriend he is, he was going to be there every step of the way. He leaned on the door of the nursery room as he watched Nicki take down everything she worked on. Safaree could do nothing but watch the tears roll down Nicki's face as she threw all the sheets, pillows, stuffed animals, diapers, gifts, socks, etc. in the corner of the room.
At this point, Nicki was laying in the middle of the room trying to catch her breathe from all the tears. Safaree sat next to sit and picked her up. He sat in the rocking chair they built together and put Nicki on his lap. As she was sitting on his lap, she was ripping off all the wallpaper designs printed on the wall.
"Nicki, stop." Safaree said in a low calm tone. He could feel the pain in her heart. She continued to rip the wall-paper. "Nicki." he said, in the same tone. She started banging on the wall with her fists, Safaree grabbed her arms and laid her in his chest while she hysterically cried. He shirt was drenched in her tears, but he didn't mind. As long as she was in his arms, he felt as if he was protecting her..that's all he wanted to do.
About 10 minutes later, Safaree tried getting Nicki to talk.
"Nic, are you gonna talk to me?"
Nicki simply stood up and left the room, he followed her once again, but she walked into her room and locked the door, leaving Safaree outside. He took a deep breathe and started to clean the kitchen while waiting for Nicki. That same say he canceled any plans/apperances that Nicki had planned for the next few weeks. Everybody was very understanding.
But 3 days had passed and nothing had changed.
Nicki would wake up, have a few bites of breakfast Safaree made for her..then walk back into her room. The only thing Safaree could hear were Nicki's sobs that echoed through the house and her daily phone calls to her mom.
Safaree picked up the phone and called Drake.
Drake: "Hi man! How's everything? Nic feeling better?"
Safaree could tell Drake sounded different, more sad than usual. He could tell the loss of the child was affecting him.
Safaree: "I wish man. She's been really depressed. She hasn't talked to me about it at all, I've been trying to get her to open up but she just won't. I'm going to give her doctor a call and see what I can do. How are you man? You doing okay?"
Drake: "Ah man, please call the doctor. Maybe he will know what to do to help her. I just want her to be okay. And I'm okay, I could be better."
Safaree: "I will Drake, don't worry. I'll send you texts and call you soon to keep you updated. Just keep your head up, it's going to be okay."
Drake: "Thank you Safaree, I'll talk to you soon."
The phone call ended and Safaree called the doctor soon after. The doctor told Safaree that Nicki isn't responding because she is going through depression, which is what is expected with mis-carriages. He told Safaree he needs to take her to therapy sessions because it's not healthy for her to be depressed and stressed for this long. So that's excatly what Safaree did. He scheduled Nicki an appointment with a thearapist for tommorow afternoon at 2:30. He walked into Nicki's room to tell her.
"Hey Nic." Safaree said. He got no response from Nicki. He took a deep breathe as he watched her laying in bed. He spoke again. "I spoke with your doctor and he told me what you're doing is unhealthy and that you needed to see a thearapist. So I scheduled you an appointment for tommorow at 2:30 to see one of the BEST thearapists in LA." He stood at the end of Nicki's bed as he waited for a response. "Okay?" Safaree asked after no reply from Nicki.
"Okay Safaree." Nicki said in a melacholony tone. She grabbed another tissue and wiped her nose and eyes. Safaree pulled up a chair and sat in Nicki's room with her. It was completely silent, but he didn't mind. As long as he was showing Nicki he wasn't going anywhere. He sat in the chair until they both fell asleep.
The next morning struck as the sun woke up Safaree through Nicki's window. He opened his eyes to see Nicki's bed empty. Then he turned around and noticed she was already out of bed and in the shower, getting ready for her thearapy appointment. Safaree could tell Nicki was ready for this, she was finally ready to open up. He ran into the shower and got ready as well, because it was NOT something he wanted to miss.

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Stress kills.

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Nicki was finally adjusting to a new lifestyle. She had a new diet, a new daily plan, and a new perspective. She was starting enjoy this new life she lived. Nicki and Drake we're still working on things, but they weren't back in a relationship yet, and SB and Nicki were still the best of friends. Drake would visit Nicki almost everyday, and had been going to every doctor appointment with her.
About a month later, Nicki was going to see the doctor again, the 3rd time seeing the doctor in a week. She was DYING to see him because she had been having un-bearable pains in her stomach. She couldn't eat, couldn't move, and the pains stressed her out..which her doctor told her she should NOT be doing. Nicki laid on her bed and waited until Drake picked her up, she didn't even have the strength to get ready for the doctor's appointment. SB walked in her room.
SB: "How are you feeling Nic? Any better?"
Nicki: "No."
She began crying once again. She was emotional, moody, stressed, and in pain but SB was always there to help. He laid in bed next to her, nose to nose as he rubbed her cheek.
SB: "It's gonna be okay. You got me, I'm not going anywhere. I love you Nic, I do. Very much."
Nicki started crying even more, but this time they were tears of joy. She smiled as she moved closer to Safaree, he leaned into Nicki as he softly pecked her lips. He pulled away and looked at Nicki, waiting for a reaction. Nicki grabbed his cheeks and pulled him in for more. She slipped her tounge into his mouth and enjoyed every second of it. She had been horny for weeks, and this made her even more horny. SB started moving his hand under her pants, feeling on her clit through her underwear, this immdiately made Nicki wet.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
"Fuck." Nicki said. She pulled away and ran over to the door while adjusting her hair and wiping her lips. She opened the door to find Drake standing there with a smile.
"APPOINTMENT NUMBER 3, LET'S DO IT!" He said with a smile. His positive attitude always made Nicki laugh. She turned around as she winked at SB and walked out with Drake.
SB sat on the couch, more confused than ever. Last time he hooked up with Nicki, they were drunk..and it meant nothing. But this time, they were both sober..and they both felt a spark when their lips touched. Safaree didn't know what to make of it, but he just waited until Nicki brought it up, he didn't want it to be like what happened with them last time. He loved Nicki, he wouldn't do anything to get back to that point.
Meanwhile, Nicki finally pulled up to the doctor's office. She jumped out of the car straight to the room she was assigned to every two weeks. She patiently waited for the doctor as she explained the pains she felt to Drake and he researched them on his phone. Finally the doctor walked in.
Doctor: "Okay Ms.Maraj. I see you have un-bearable pains in your stomach daily, which isn't normal. I'm going give you an ultra-sound and see if everything is healthy with the baby." He leaned Nicki back as he squirted the blue cold gel on her baby bump. The coldness made her giggle..but the doctor's facial expressions made her smile fade away. She saw the distraught look on his face when he was looking at the scans.
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj I am going to need to do a CAT Scan on your stomach, please follow me this way."
At this point, Nicki was terrified, she didn't understand what the big deal was. She started getting teary eyed as Drake grabbed her hand, walking her into the room to get CAT scanned. Once they walked in the room, the doctor brought a few other nurses with him to do the tests. Nicki laid on the scanner as X-Rays were being taken. About 30 minutes later, the doctor came in with answers for Nicki and Drake.
Nicki: "What happened? Please, I've been stressing out while you make me wait here."
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj, there is no easy way for me to say this...(he took a deep breathe as he gave the X-Rays to Nicki)...you've had a mis-carriage, I believe it was due to the amount of stress you had. You lost your baby. I am truly sorry."
He rubbed her shoulder as Nicki stared at the floor. She was completely numb, completely in shock, she could feel the beating of her heart come out of her ears, the pain of her stomach took over her body. She was broken.
The doctor left the room, he let Drake know the pains should go away within the next week, and to keep her as calm as possible.
Drake walked over to Nicki and tried talking to her, but she was speechless. She grabbed her phone and purse and walked straight to the car. The whole way home was silent. Nicki was in tears at this point, she couldn't process her feelings or express them.
Drake opened Nicki's condo and walked her to her room, she was still speechless. She closed and locked the door as Drake walked back to the couch and told SB the horrifying news.
Drake also explained to SB that he needed to keep Nicki calm and stress-free because she was already risking her health by stressing out. Drake was going to be traveling the next few weeks to finish the final touches on his album, so he told SB to please take care of her and he will try visiting and calling as much as possible. He wrote Nicki a note telling her how much he loved her and how sorry he was. He stuck it under her door as he left the condo, in tears, he lost his baby before he could even look into it's beautiful eyes.

 

For every "Goodbye" is a new "Hello."

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The next morning, Nicki paid no attention to the fight that happened last night. She didn't even let the thought cross her mind. She was too busy worrying about the missed phone call and tweet  she recieved last night from Jay, the first man Nicki ever loved..and the first man that ever broke her heart.
She ran into Safaree's room to tell him the news, but he already knew.
Nicki: "SAFAREEE DID YOU SEE.."
SB but Nicki off.
Safaree: "The tweet and missed call from Jay? Yes I did. I don't want you seeing that man Nicki. Not after what he put you through, that isn't happening again."
Nicki: "Safaree, he's not going to get to me like he used to. He was my first love, and I am going to see him. I already called him back, we are getting lunch so I am going to get ready."
SB knew there was nothing he could do, if Nicki wanted to see Jay, she was going to do it and there was nothing SB could do/say to stop her. Before she left on her date, SB warned her about all past..."I just want you to remeber the way he treated you. The way he would walk out, leaving you to cry, the way he verbally put you down..always reminding you that you were never good enough for him. He made your life hell for months after he left you Nicki. Don't put trust into someone that walked away from you. He could be using you for your sucess, just be careful." SB said. Nicki kissed him on the cheek and replied "I remeber" as she left the condo.
Nicki pulled up to a yummy Cafe in LA where she was planning on meeting him. She was applying her lipstick as she saw Jay from the corner of her eye, waiting outside of her car. She immadiately smiled as she jumped out of the car on top of him. Their connection was strong. They weren't through the good and bad together, they truly loved eachother, and it soon faded away..but the friendship they shared never died. Nicki loved how Jay was not star-struck at all when being with Nicki. He was excatly how he was from when Nicki last saw him back in Queens a few years back and she loved that. They had an amazing lunch together and caught up on all the old memories, Nicki forgot how much they shared together, and all her feelings started to come back after every day she spent with him since that lunch. They became closer and closer, and although SB wasn't happy with it, it was the happiest he had seen Nicki in quite a while, so he had to deal.
About 2 weeks later, Nicki and Safaree were headed to the doctor's office. Nicki had been complaining about her stomach for about 2 and a half months now, but she never had the time to see a doctor. She occisonally threw up and she was quite moody, but SB just thought it was from all the stress. Once they got to the doctor's, Nicki did a couple tests for her stomach..one of the tests being to pee in a cup. About 10 minutes later, the doctor walked in and looked at Nicki.
"I found out what is bothering your tummy Ms.Maraj."
Nicki jumped up. "WHAT IS IT?" she said, eager to know why she's been having these pains.
"Your 3 months pregnant. Congrats!"
The room became silent. Nicki looked at SB with  distraught look on her face and SB in full shock.
"How is that even possible? Are you sure? Can we run more tests?" she asked while starting to tear up.
Doctor: "I've done all the tests I can do, your absoutely pregnant. You had no idea?"
Nicki: "I just thought it was from stress. I mean I always have stomach aches and pains so I was used to it. I've only thrown up a few times..I just didn't think much of it..but I have had acohol in the past 3 months a few times..will that affect anything?"
Doctor: "It may Nicki. You need to start taking things slow and not stress yourself out. I am going to give you a few minutes to talk with Safaree while I go write down your new diet and how you should be handling things."
Nicki: "Thank you."
The doctor left the room, and the tears streamed down Nicki's face. SB scooted her over and sat next to her.
"Drake." Nicki said.
It couldn't have been Jay who got Nicki pregnant, because he had only been back in Nicki's life for about a month and a half now, plus, Nicki only had sex with him once and he wore a condom. 3 months and a half months ago was the last time Nicki had sex with Drake, and that was the only man she was seeing.
Safaree: "Did the boy not use a condom?"
Nicki: "It must have broke. It's him forshure. I was only seeing Drake 3 months ago."
Nicki picked up her phone and texted Drake for the first time since the fight at Wayne's house. "I need to come over right now Drake." she started to grab her things to leave as the doctor walked back in, giving her a list of things to eat and ways to not stress out.
"You will need this. I know you have had alcohol and stressed out in the past 3 months so I need to see you every two weeks and make sure the baby is okay." The doctor said.
"I will be here." Nicki replied, she hugged the doctor and grabbed SB's hand as she walked out. She got in the car and started driving.
"Where are we going?" Safaree asked.
"I have to go say goodbye to Jay. The first thing on this list says to end any sexual relationships I am having with anyone besides the father, it's stressful and unhealthy. I'll drop you off at home if you want Safaree." Nicki said while starting to tear up.
"No way. I am staying with you. I will wait in the car while you talk to Jay, and I will drive." Safaree rubbed Nicki's back as she pulled up to the apartment Jay was currently staying at until he had to fly back to Queens in the next few weeks.
Nicki knocked on the door and Jay let her in, he could tell something was going on.
Nicki: "I came here...to...."
Nicki immadiately started to cry. Jay held her in his arms while they say on the couch.
Jay: "It's okay babygirl, just say what's going on."
Nicki: "This is my goodbye to you. I am 3 months pregnant by somebody else and I had no idea until today. I can't be with you, it's unhealthy. And I can't keep seeing you everyday like I have been for this past month, I have to let go of all the feelings I have held towards you. This is my goodbye."
The conversastion went on for about 15 more minutes, Jay completely understood and did everything to make Nicki feel better, they agreed that they could Video Call eachother once a month and he would see Nicki whenever she was in town, or he was in town. He simply kissed her on the cheek as he watched the woman that he love fade off in the distance. And she wiped her tears as she walked away from the first man she loved.
Once she got in the car with Safaree, her phone lit up. It was Drake. "Just got home..come over." Safaree then drove Nicki to Drake's house as she held her stomach because she was feeling sharp pains, and she knew it was from the stress on her pregnancy. "Safaree I will text you when I am ready to be picked up, this may take a little longer." She closed the door and blew Safaree a kiss as she whispered "Thank you bestfriend" out of her mouth. He knew excatly what she said, he smiled and drove off as Nicki walked into Drakes.
Nicki: "Hi."
Drake flew up as he ran to her and hugged her, he missed her so much and felt so incomplete. Seeing Nicki brought him to tears, and seeing Drake brought her to tears.
They both made theirselves comfortable on the couch and Drake brought out ice-cold waters with cranberries and almonds for Nicki, her favorite snack. They caught up and Nicki told Drake all about Jay, being completely honest. And Drake told Nicki that he had been sober since Wayne's party, and he will continue being sober for her. But now it was time to explain why she was really there.
Drake: "Okay so I know you didn't just come here to catch up with me..what's going on?"
Nicki: "Drake...this hasn't been easy for me to come to relazation too..."
Nicki started to tear up and cry as Drake anxiously waited for her to continue as he grasped her hand.
Nicki: "3 months ago was the last time I had sex with you."
Drake had a confused look on his face. He wasn't understandind the purpose of the statement.
Drake: "Okay? And?"
Nicki: "I'm 3 months pregnant."
The room stood still. Nicki was unable to read Drake's reaction, she started to cry more.
Drake finally spoke. "That's beautiful, I am blessed to be apart of something so beautiful."
Nicki and Drake threw eachother in their arms and started to cry with eachother, they were both scared but blessed. Nicki talked to Drake about how the stress and alchol from previously may affect the child and her pegnancy. They made a schedule to go to the doctor's toghether every 2 weeks and Drake wrote down some recipies he suggest for Nicki. If they were going to do this..they were doing it toghether. As a couple or not. Once Safaree picked Nicki up and went home, she laid in bed and thought about her new lifestyle. Everything was about to change...and it's not the way she is expecting.

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The Fight For Love.

Days passed. Weeks passed. It had been almost 2 months since Nicki had seen/talked to Drake since he walked out on her. Everyday was a new step for her, she was slowly starting to realize that Drake was probaly not going to come back to her and it was time to move on..and she was willing to let go.
Fashion Week had just ended in New York, Nicki and her team were headed back to LA to work on her album and prepare for the IHeartRadio Music Festival. Once she landed and got comfortable back at her condo, she got a phone call from Lil Wayne.
Nicki: "WAAAYYNNEEEE! HI BABY!"
Wayne: "Hi Nicc, how are you?"
Nicki: "I'm good I'm good, just got home from New York!"
Wayne: "Perfect timing. We are having a party tonight at my house in celebration of Birdman's new single (Y.U.Mad) and because I miss my Young Money family"
Nicki: "Of course I will be there, wouldn't miss it for the world. See you then Wayne MWAH!"
Wayne: "Okay bye Nic."
The first thoughts through Nicki's head was Drake. She hadn't seen or spoke to him in over 2 months and she knew tommorow night they were going to be re-united. She made Safaree sit and watch her try on outfit after outfit and wig after wig. She finally picked the perfect outfit.
Nicki wore her long blonde wig with a black blazer that was cut to show her clevage and cheetah bra, the blazer also cut on the bottom so it also showed her mid-drift. She matched with Chinese leggings that had a bunch of different desings within them, and cheeah printed heels. She had glitter eyeshadow with thick black eyeliner, and of course, her pink lipstick. She looked beautiful.
Safaree and Nicki ate dinner toghether and hopped in their white Range Rover, getting ready to begin the night. Once they arrived at Wayne's house, Nicki took a deep breathe and walked in. She smiled as big as possible when she saw her Young Money family all together again. She walked around and hugged everyone and had small conversastion, until she reached Drake. Once she walked to Drake, she could tell he had already been drinking, so it would be eaiser to hold conversastion with him now that he was drunk.
Nicki: "Hi Drake."
She leaned over and hugged him and he grasped her so tight, not wanting to let go.
Drake: "Well look at you, you look stunning."
He smiled at Nicki and kissed her hand, she smiled back and she walked off to say hi to everyone else. Nicki was playing hard to get, she knew that she wasn't going to make it easy for Drake to get back what he left. The night when on and Drake followed Nicki like a lost puppy. Of course, she paid no attention to him, because that would ruin her plan. Nicki thought it was funny to mess with Drake's emotions, she thought it was the payback he deserved. So she went to the bar and sat with a guy she had met earlier in the night, drinking and flirting with him. But it wasn't long until Drake couldn't take it anymore. The man slowly started to kiss Nicki on her neck, and that's when Drake made his move.
"I don't know who the fuck you think you are, but you better back the fuck up if you think you are getting ANYWHERE with this girl tonight." Drake screamed while pushing the man away.
"Drake what the fuck?" Nicki exclaimed. But she knew excatly what was going on.
"Ay don't touch me bro." The random man replied while pushing Drake even harder.
Drake threw the first punch, at this point he was an angry drunk and he wasn't going easy on this guy. Drake beat the living shit out of the guy until Wayne finally ran over and pulled them apart. The man was a friend of Wayne's, his name was Robert. Not only was Wayne embarrased that Drake fought his good friend, he was embarrased that Nicki was the one who started it out of revenge, he was dissapointed in both Nicki and Drake and asked them to leave his house until they could discuss things privately.
Drake left with his bestfriend and producer 40, and Nicki left with Safaree. Drake was screaming things at Nicki in the parking lot, but Nicki couldn't understand what he was saying, and she was too busy getting yelled at by SB on the way to the car.
"Nicki why would you do this? You KNEW that if you flirted with Robert, Drake would be upset and you did it anyways and look what you caused..I'm dissapointed. It's not always about getting people back, sometimes it's about letting go. You got yourself into some deep shit, I don't wanna talk to you right now so let's just leave it at that."
Safaree was annoyed with Nicki, and also mad because he got socked a couple times from trying to break up Drake and Robert fighting.
Nicki sat there quiet, not saying a word. Safaree always knew how to get to her, his words always went straight to Nicki's heart. Nicki was on her phone looking at tweets the whole way home. Drake tweeted.."I know you still think about the times we had." which brought Nicki to tears. She tweeted shortly after Drake saying "It's not always about getting people back, sometime's about letting go. Goodnight." That tweet drove Team Minaj CRAZY! They knew something was going on and they wanted to know what, Safree tweeted later in the night "Smh at these niggas."
Once they got home, Nicki ran straight in her room to take off her makeup and wig, and change into comfy clothes. She was upset because Safaree was ignoring her, and she hated it. She turned off her phone and went straight to bed.
Safaree was reading all the tweets on his timeline when he noticed something strange. A man tweeted to Nicki. And it wasn't just any man, it was the first man to ever break Nicki's heart. Safaree hated this man, and he hated seeing the tweet he sent to Nicki. It read: "I tried calling you, I think you're phone is off. We have some catching up to do Onika. Call when you see this."
Nicki was CRAZY in love with him. She loved him with all his heart, when they broke up, she was broken for months straight. Safaree hated him because of all the pain he caused. And he was NOT okay with him coming back into Nicki's life now.

Nicki's decision. (Part 2)

It had been a few days since Drake spoke to Nicki. She was still tied up and confused on how Drake could make her pick between Safaree or him. She couldn't sleep or think straight from all the thoughts in her mind. But she soon come to a decision. Nicki was going to stay by Safaree's side like he had always done for her. But she wasn't just going to watch Drake walk out, she was going to remind him what they had before she gave him her answer. She finally texted him letting him know it was time for them to discuss this.
Drake's phone lit up with a text from Nicki. "If you have no plans tonight, I'd like to discuss this. Come over" This was the message Drake had been waiting for. He quickly sent a message back. "Pefect. I will there at 10." Nicki sat down with Safaree and explained what she was going to do and say, hoping Drake would realize they both mean so much to her and hoping he would understand. Safaree on the other hand, he wanted nothing to do with this. He thought it was pathetic that Drake was forcing Nicki to choose between the two people she loved the most. So Safaree decided to go out with his boys tonight, that way he will be home super late and Nicki will be ready to talk to him by the time he is home. Once Safaree left the condo, Nicki finished getting ready. She kept her makeup on from earlier in the day, and threw on black booty-shorts with a white YMCMB tank top and her natural curls hanging slightly past her shoulders. She sat there with a drink in her hand and waiting for Drake. 10:00 hit the clock. *DING DONG* Nicki walked to the door.
When she opened it, she smiled at Drake. He had just came out of a meeting so he looked very handsome in his black suit with a silver tie.
"Hi Drake." she said softly with a cute chuckle to her voice.
"Hi Nic." he kissed her on the cheek, hoping she made the decision to stay with him.
Nicki handed him a cup as she sat herself on the couch. Drake took a sip and made a face like he was drinking posion.
"Could you have made this drink any stronger? I feel like I could get drunk off 2 sips." Drake started laughing with Nicki because he knew that she was a light-weight and she was probaly already drunk from the drink.
"Sorry, you know I barley drink, I'm not good with this stuff." Nicki replied while laughing.
"So let's talk." Drake said. Those words changed the mood in the room. Made both of them extremely nervous. But Nicki already had a plan in her head.
"All I know is...I love you, Drizzy." she chugged the rest of her drink and stumbled over to Drake and sat on his lap, kissing him on his neck and playing with his shirt.
"Finish that." Nicki said while feeling him up. He chugged the drink because her touch was getting him horny. Once he finished the drink, he threw the cup as he started to passionately kiss Nicki. She slowly removed his shirt as he removed hers. She wrapped her legs around him and he grabbed her and walked into the bedroom. He threw her down and immdiately removed her shorts, bra, and thong. Nicki was already letting out moans because she was sensitive to his touch. He felt her up and down as he kissed on her body making his way past her navel until his face was in between her thighs once again. She screamed once his tounge hit her, once Drake started, there was no stop. No matter how much she kicked, screamed, and cried, he wouldn't let go of her. Drake's pace became faster as he flicked his tounge in her, he contiued the pace until he heard Nicki scream. "IT'S RIGHT THERE DRAKE!" Then he knew he hit the spot. He immdiately started sucking and going faster as he felt Nicki's body tighten and clench. She leaned her head back and let out a loud moan while her eyes her pressed shut. "I'M..." she couldn't even finish her sentence due to the amazing orgasm she just experienced. Drake just smiled at Nicki, but she wasn't through with him. She started to rip off the rest of his suit while flipping him over in the covers. Then she stuck her head under and went down-town. But it didn't take a while for Drake, after a few minutes, he experinced the same feeling he gave to Nicki earlier. Once he did that, Nicki popped her head from under the sheets and laid her head on his chest while he searched his wallet for a condom. He slipped it on and quickly slipped inside of the Nicki, pounding her at the fastest pace possible. "I love you." Nicki said in between her moans. "I love you Nic, I really do." after minutes, Drake pulled out and layed next to Nicki. Rubbing her hair and kissing her cheek.
Nicki started speaking. "I love you more than I can ever explain. Without you in my life, I am nothing. I need you, I love you, I want you. Drake you're everything, you're my life." soft tears started to stream down Nicki's face as Drake wiped them. "I'm not going anywhere." Drake replied. This is where Nicki's plan set in, her next few words changed everything.
"Neither is Safaree."
The room suddenly got still and quiet. With not a single thing moving, no noises.
The way Drake would re-act right now would change EVERYTHING.
Drake got off the bed as he started to dress himself. Nicki could see the anger in his eyes.
"Drake don't do this.." Nicki said while starting to cry even harder. She threw on a robe and ran to the door before Drake could leave. Once Drake was changed, he saw Nicki sitting infront of the door crying. Drake sat next to Nicki and calmed her down.
"It's not the end. I just need sometime for myself, I deserve atleast that from you Nicki."
She moved her body away from the door and watched him lean over her and kiss her on the cheek as he walked himself out. He left her confused and in tears.
She laid in bed and waiting for Safaree to come home. At this point she had no make-up on, a baggy shirt, and a thong. Which was her normal bed-time outfit. About 45 minutes later, Safaree walked in the room and went straight into Nicki's room. She hugged him and cried in his arms while explaining everything to her bestfriend. Nicki knew this wasn't the last time she would see Drake, but it killed her to know she may be without him for a while.
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Nicki's decision. (Part 1)

This chapter is shorter than most because I just wanted to catch you guys up before getting to the main drama of the story.

Nicki walked over to the door and opened it. She saw Drake standing there, he looked perfect in her eyes. He was freshly shaved with a new haircut, wearing jeans with a maroon long sleeve and Nicki's favorite necklace. She smiled at him but her smile faded away when she saw Shana standing right next to him. Shana was wearing tight black pantd with a flowly flower shirt and creme wedges, you could tell she dressed up for the occasion. Once they sat down, Nicki and SB walked over to the bar.
"Do you guys want any drinks?" Nicki asked.
"No thanks." Drake said. He looked over at Shana. She thought about it but then said no to the drinks as well. While Nicki and SB took another shot and made a mixed drink for themselves.
Once the drinks were made, Nicki and SB joined Shana and Drake in the living room as they took a seat.
"So Drake, you've been calling, texting, and e-mailing me for weeks. What is it you had to say so badly?" Nicki asked. That started the conversastion to a VERY important discussion.
Drake: "Nicki, I am sorry for what I did. I am not going to blame the drinking, I am not going to blame Shana. I am going to blame myself, I truly am sorry for what I did and the pain I caused, it wasn't intentionally."
Nicki tried not to look at Drake because she didn't wanna give in. She adjusted herself on the couch as she continued drinking and listening.
Shana: "Nicki.." (the room suddenly became still when Shana spoke. EVERYONE was interested in what she had to say.) "When I called Drake and told him I came into town, he warned me he was dating you. I didn't take it seriously because me and Drake have always had a past connection. Everytime I come to see him, it's like we are dating again. And it was weird visiting him and he wasn't treating me the same. And it hurt my feelings because I thought he didn't feel the same for me. So I made us drinks, got us drunk, and seduced him. I did it for my own satifaction. I did it because I missed Drake and I didn't wan to loose him. But I realized something..nothing changed. Drake always loved me, but now he loves me differently because he has found a new woman who stole his whole heart. I've thought about this, and I want Drake happy. And I decided I am going to loose contact with Drake, because seeing you guys happy will keep me happy. I'm sorry for anything and everything I have done. Goodbye Drake."
Shana grabbed her keys and walked out as Nicki, Drake, and SB sat there in complete shock. Drake sat there in tears as he watched one of the closest people in his life walk out. Nicki asked SB to go in another room so she could talk to Drake. Once SB walked out, Nicki sat on top of Drake's lap as leaned on her chest trying not to cry anymore.
"It's okay to cry Drake, it's okay." Nicki started crying herself, just because she missed being in Drake's arms..and because she was an emotional drunk. Drake layed with Nicki as she leaned in to kiss him. She was happy it got cleared up, and she was happy she had Drake back.
Nicki grabbed Drake's hand and walked him into her room, closing the door behind her. She jumped on Drake as she started kissing on his neck and removing his clothes. "Yesss" Drake moaned as he slipped his fingers into Nicki and rubbed against her listening to her moans, that's what he truly missed. He leaned back in to kiss Nicki before he stuck it in..but Nicki stopped him. "Drake I have something to tell you." Nicki said with a low tone.
"What's the matter?" Drake asked while kissing on her neck, he couldn't wait to be with Nicki tonight.
"I kissed Safaree." Nicki said looking down.
Drake pulled away as he started putting his clothes back on.
Drake: "So let me get this straight. You made me loose contact with Shana forever, and you kissed Safaree? No, if I have to loose Shana, you have to loose Safaree. Bullshit Nicki."
Nicki: "Drake it was just a kiss. I wasn't naked in bed with him like you were with Shana."
Drake: "NICKI, ME AND SHANA DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. WE KISSED AND UN-DRESSED EACHOTHER AND YOU WALKED IN. THAT'S ALL. IF YOUR MAKING ME LOOSE CONTACT WITH SHANA OVER THAT THEN I AM MAKING YOU LOSE CONTACT WITH SAFAREE."
Nicki was startled at Drake raising his voice and started to cry just from thinking of not being with Safaree.
Nicki: "He lives with me Drake. He's my bestfriend. I can't just get rid of him like that. Please."
Drake: "It's him or me."
Drake grabbed his keys and phone as he stormed out. Nicki sat in her room crying and thinking. It was impossible for her to choose between the two people she loved and cared for the most. Drake or Safaree?

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Week and a Half.

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It had been a week and a half since Nicki caught Drake with his ex Shana. Nicki was incredibly hurt, this situation reminded herself why she doesn't fall in love..because she always ends up being hurt. Drake had been calling, texting, and e-mailing Nicki constantly. He needed to explain hiself to her, but she wasn't ready to let him back in her life. She was broken, she couldn't go a whole day without crying, not only did it hurt her, it hurt SB. Safaree could NOT stand seeing Nicki the way she was. She looked fine in public and infront of her barbz, but as soon as she was alone, she was an emotional wreck. Especially helping her fall alseep, Nicki wasn't able to sleep at night unless she had Safaree there talking to her until she fell asleep. This made him exhausted, but he did anything to help Nicki feel better.
The next morning was good because they both got to sleep in. Nicki didn't have any plans until later in the afternoon when she had a photoshoot set up. But Safaree still woke up early to make Nicki a nice breakfast, hoping she'd wake up feeling happier. As SB was cooking, he heard the doorbell. The doorbell was so loud that it not only scared SB, but woke up Nicki. She creeped down the stairs, hiding behind the wall, waiting for SB to open the door to see who it is. Nicki didn't want it to be anyone she didn't want to see when she first wakes up. So she hid behind the wall, peeking her head through the edge. Safaree walked over to the door and opened it. Drake stood infront of him.
"Hey man." Drake said. You could tell he was nervous by the way he was pacing back and forth and staring around. The last thing Safaree wanted to see was the man who crushed his bestfriend. Nicki stood at the edge of the wall as she watched the conversastion.
"Do you need something Drake?" SB said in a rude tone so Drake could get the point he wasn't allowed there.
"I need...I need Nicki." Drake said while holding back his tears. Safaree felt bad because he knows Drake is truly sorry, but he was still upset because Nicki was still hurt.
"Well, she's sleeping. I don't think she wants you here anyway."
Nicki stared at them, deciding if she should come out, or stay hiding behind the wall. She wasn't ready to see or talk to Drake, but she knows Drake wouldn't leave until he got what he want.
"Safaree, please..I need to talk to her. Atleast see her.." Drake replied. But Safaree cut him off.
"Maybe you should have thought about that before you fooled around with your ex. Nicki has been miserable Drake. She hasn't gone a full day without breaking down crying since the day she found you with Shana. Look Drake, I know Nicki, and I know she isn't going to want to start ANYTHING back up until she has a few words with Shana, and with you you..but for now I think the last thing she wants to deal with is you. It's best if you just leave. I'll tell her you stopped by, whether she decides to get in contact with you is on her." Safaree really stuck into Drake. He could see the guilt all over his face.
"Okay Safaree, I understand. Thank you man, I'm truly sorry." Drake replied while stepping away.
"See you later man." SB said while closing the door.
"Hopefully." Drake replied in a low tone while walking off. SB closed the door as he walked back over to the kitchen to finish breakfast.
"Hi...Safaree." Nicki said while walking into the kitchen, she was already crying.
"Hey Nic, I made you breakfast." SB replied while smiling, hoping it would cheer up Nicki. Nicki ran into SB's arms and cried but gave him the biggest hug she could give.
"I heard it, I love you." Nicki said while laying her face on his chest. He smiled at Nicki while he brought the food to the table.
It was quiet during breakfast, but not awkward because SB could tell Nicki was thinking about something..he knew Nicki was going to say what was on her mind any second.
"SB." Nicki said. He knew it was coming. "Yes Nic?" He replied.
"I think...I think...I'm ready to talk to Drake, and Shana." When Nicki said Shana's name, a sudden tone of anger came into her voice.
"Abouuuut?" SB asked.
"Drake needs to learn that he's gonna be missing me, I'm not just taking him back so easily..if I take him back at all. And Shana...I don't know, I just think she should be there."
SB was suprised how maturely Nicki was handling it. She contunied speaking. "We'll meet up here, tonight, after my photoshoot." She picked up her blackberry as she sent a text to Drake. "I expect you and Shana at my door at 7:30 if you want anything to be resolved." as soon as she set her phone down, her phone lit back up with a text. "Be there. Thank you Nic, thank you." was Drake's response. She set her phone down as she looked up at SB, she could tell something was wrong. "What's the matter SB?" Nicki asked while bringing her emtpy plate to the sink.
"Nic. Are you going to tell Drake about what happened when I first got in my accident?"
Nicki acted confused, even though she knew EXCATLY what he was talking about.
"What are you talking about SB?" she asked while acting confused.
"Nicki, don't play that confused card with me." He said while putting one eyebrow up.
She took a deep breathe. "The kiss. It's all about being honest tonight, so yes, I will tell him."
 She walked into bedroom and her got everything she needed for her photoshoot. She got her hair and makeup done by Day & Terrence and looked FLAWLESS. She had an amazing shoot, like always. Once she got back home, she kept the makeup on and changed into a black long wig. She threw on ripped jeans a white V-Neck and took a shot of patron with SB.
7:30 struck the clock.
*DIINNGGG DOONNGGGGG*
Let the night begin.

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The accident. (Part 2)

Once Nicki arrived to the hospital, all she could do was cry. She didn't even care about the papparzi surrounding her, pressuring her with questions, or the many missed calls and texts from Drake, she just cared about seeing SB and seeing him alive. She walked down the long halls until the nurse stopped and said "Here is his room Ms.Nicki. I am going to do my best to get rid of the papparzi. SB has a few injuries, but he is going to be okay. He will just need someone to be with him for the next 2 weeks." the nurse opened the door and let Nicki in while closing it right behind her so they could have their time alone. SB had a concusion, bruised ribs, broken ankle, and scratches and bruises all over his body. It hurt for him to even turn his neck due to the sore aches from the accident.
Nicki sat there crying before she could say anything. She thought about the last words he said to her before getting into the accident.
"...my love for you will ever stop."
Those few words took over her brain, heart, and all emotions as she watched her bestfriend in pain and suffering. She felt as if it was her fault, it wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for her. Guilt took over her soul as she watched him lay there.
"I'm sorry.." were the first words that came out of SB's mouth when he saw Nicki.
"Comeon SB, let's go home." Nicki didn't seem to realize how bad the aftermath of the accident was. She didn't realize that SB was unable to walk or even move on his own. She started to take off the blankets as the doctor walked in.
"Uh hello. Ms.Minaj and Mr.Samuels." the doctor said as he strangely look at Nicki trying to hold SB in her arms.
"Hello doctor." Nicki said while wiping her tears "I'm just going to put SB in the wheelchair and take him home, thank you for the..." The doctor cut off Nicki's sentence and began to speak. "Oh no Ms.Minaj, SB needs to stay with us tonight. He has a minor concusion, he will be able to leave in the morning."
Nicki had a devistsating look on her face as the doctor smiled and walked out.
"It's okay Nic, just come back in the morning, I'm fine." SB said.
"No way!" Nicki exclaimed while making herself comfortable on the couch next to his bed. "I'll be just fine on this couch." she shot SB a big smile as her phone buzzed. It was another text from Drake. Nicki finally replied so he could stop blowing up her phone.
"SB got in a car accident, he will be okay but he has to stay at the hospital for the night and I will be joining him. Please stop calling and texting me Drake. Anything you need to say, we can discuss later. Goodnight." she sent the message as she set down her phone and poured herself a cup of water.
"Drake texting you?" SB asked while Nicki sipped on the water. He saw the look on her face and knew something happened. "What's going on Nic?" he asked while painfully adjusting hiself up to sit.
"I uh..." Nicki started crying again. "I went to go talk to Drake after you walked out and when I got to his condo, his ex-girlfriend was there drinking wine with him. You know, I don't really know what's going on but he didn't tell me. It doesn't matter though, I don't care. The thought of me almost loosing you.." Nicki stopped her sentence as she froze, stuck in the idea of loosing SB. Her heart became heavy as waterfalls streamed down her face.
"Come here." SB scooted down and left an open spot for Nicki on the bed. She jumped under the sheets and carefully placed her head on his shoulder as she cried to him. About 30 minutes later, Nicki started to calm herself down. She adjusted SB  in the bed and sat on the couch next to him and sang. SB loved Nicki's singing, it was always the perfect way to put him to sleep. She rubbed his head while singing him sweet songs, once he was alseep, Nicki adjusted herself on the couch and layed down as she tweeted to her barbz, letting them know SB was okay. "Hi barbz. SB is doing fine, thank you for all your kind words. Don't take life for granted. Muahh, love you barbz xoxo" she sent out the tweet and fell right asleep.
The next morning, Nicki finally got to take SB back home to their condo. She spoiled him SO much as he layed in bed, anything he asked for, Nicki did. She was so blessed he was alive, so she was doing anything for him.

A few days later and SB was still on bedrest. Nicki was still at his side every second, helping him recover. She layed in bed with SB to watch TV, but once he saw Nicki jump in the bed, he turned it off.

"Why'd you turn it off? Jersey Shore repeats are on!" Nicki said while laughing.

"We've seen them all before silly girl, let's talk."

Nicki knew when SB wanted to talk, it wasn't going to be about happy. Usually when SB talks with Nicki, it ends up being an emotionally conversastion that makes her cry. She rolled her eyes at SB, waiting for him to start talking.

"Have you talked to Drake?" SB started the convo.

"He called me. And apologized. I said I need a little break from him while I am taking care of you. I knew I wouldn't be seeing/talking to him alot while I was taking care of you so it was better I just took a break from him..especially since he didn't tell me why his ex-girlfriend Shana was at his house. But whatever, he agreed."

"Oh I see. Maybe it's needed though. Maybe while your away from eachother you can see if you really miss and need eachother."

Nicki smiled because SB always knew the right things to say.

They stayed in bed for the rest of the day talking about life, love, and everything else you can think of. This day really brought them close to eachother and they both appreciated that. Before Nicki tucked SB in for bed, she gave him a bubble bath since he couldn't shower hiself. It wasn't very awkward because Nicki and SB had seen eachother naked plenty of times before.

"SB your getting me soaked!" Nicki screamed while throwing him in the bath-tub.

"Pauz..." they both said at the same time while cracking up.

"No seriously though, my whole shirt is drenched." Nicki said while taking off her shirt, leaving her only in a bra and comfy short shorts that said "MINAJ" on the butt.

Once SB was done with his bath, Nicki took him out and help him dry off while putting his boxers on, she helped him to his bed and tucked him in. He pulled her in as she layed on top of him and he hugged her with his warm body heat. While hugging her, SB whispered in Nicki's ear "You're truly the best thing that happened in my life. Thank you. I love you."

When Nicki heard those words, she moved her nose on top of his nose and smiled. Her held his cheeks as they both leaned in and kissed eachother passionately. She sat up and winked at SB while closing the door behind her so he could get some sleep.

A few weeks later, SB was almost recovered. Nicki was so proud to see him getting better everyday. Since that night, they have had a few other occasions where they kissed again, but nothing besides that. They were both extremely happy in eachothers presense.

Nicki went to pick a new outfit for a new day. "DAMMIITT." she screamed.

"WHAT IS IT?" SB screamed back.

Nicki ran back into his room with an angry look on her face.

"Half of my stuff is at Drake's. Even my laptop with my beats and I need to go to the studio later and use those beats. I need to go get it. I'll be back in 20 mins SB, I love you."

She grabbed her phone and began dialing Drake's number, even though she hadn't talked to him in weeks. He wouldn't reply to her texts or phone calls, but once she was at the condo, she grabbed the spare key he had given her when she spent the week with him a while back. She lightly opened the door and closed it behind her. She didn't know if anyone was home. "HELLO?" she said. No answer.

She walked around the house, gathering all her stuff. She had everything she needed, except for her "YMCMB" jacket that she remeber was in Drake's room. She walked herself to Drake's room but before she opened the door she heard music playing and moans and laughs and screams. "The fuck?" She thought to herself. She opened the door to see Drake, naked in bed with his ex-girlfriend Shana. Not only was he in bed with her, he was extremely drunk, at 1 in the afternoon. Nicki said nothing, she simply turned around and started walking to the door and Drake ran behind her, already starting to explain hiself. But Nicki didn't listen. She slammed the door behind her and immdiately bursted into tears while calling SB explaining to him what she just saw. "Just get home safe please Nic." was the only thing SB could say or even think about. He didn't want her in the same position she was in. Once she got back to the condo, she grabbed all the stuff and threw it on the floor as she layed in bed and cried on SB, his shirt was drenched in her tears and makeup, but he didn't mind. They both knew this wasn't like Drake to do this. Something was up, and SB was going to get to the bottom of it.

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The accident. (Part 1)

It had been 3 days since Jessa walked out on Safaree. He was still emotional and hurt. Everytime Nicki asked what happened between them, Safaree wouldn't answer or he would lie about it. But Nicki was smarter than that, she knew he was lying about the real story. And Safaree NEVER lies to Nicki, they tell eachother everything..so she immdiately knew something was up. That morning, Nicki walked downstairs to see Safaree playing on his phone while sitting on the couch. She sat herself next to him, but not too close.
"Safaree, I need to talk to you." Nicki said in an almost whispering tone.
"Ok, what's up?" He replied, trying to sound like everything was fine..but Nicki knew it wasn't.
"What happened with you and Jessa? What REALLY happened."
Safaree noticed the look on her face. He knew that Nicki knows when he lies, but he didn't want to tell her the real reason. He didn't want to get in the way of her relationship with Drake..and if he told her, that's excatly what woud happened.
"I already told you Nic, we just got in a fight because I don't see her enough, and she got mad and walked out."
Nicki grabbed the remote, turned off the TV, and slammed it back on the coffee table. She was getting angry that Safaree was continously lying to her about what happened.
"Safaree? Do you think I'm stupid? Seriously? I know something happened, and I know your not telling the truth. We don't lie to eachother Safaree, we tell eachother everything. Why are you hiding this from me? We are bestfriends!!" at this point Nicki was screaming at Safaree.
"NICKI JUST STOP. SOME THINGS I DON'T TELL YOU FOR THE RIGHT REASONS. SO JUST STOP."
Nicki was so angry, you could hear her heart pumping in her chest. And she wasn't giving up until she got her answer.
"THIS IS BULLSHIT SAFAREE, I DESERVE TO KNOW. WHAT HAPPENED THAT WAS SO BAD THAT YOU CAN'T EVEN TELL ME?"
Safaree knew at this point that if he wasn't honest, it would only get worse. He took a deep breathe and turned himself away from Nicki.
"You." He said in a calm voice. In those 3 letters, Nicki could tell he was spilling the truth.
"Me? What did I do?" she said with attitude, confused on how she affected the relationship.
"You did nothing. Jessa..." SB swallowed his spit and wiped his tears that started rolling down his face as he continued the sentence. "Jessa saw the way I looked at you and she knew."
Nicki started calming down once she realized SB was opening up to her. "Knew what?" she asked with guilt in her voice.
"That I was still in love with you."
The room immdiately got quiet, all you could hear was Safaree's sobs. Nicki was speechless. Safaree turned back to Nicki and continued confessing.
"Never stopped loving you Nic, I just learned how to control it and put our friendship first. But Jessa..she could see right through me. She felt like she had to share me and she wasn't okay with that. It's something that will never stop..my love for you will never stop"
Safaree grabbed his keys and walked out of the condo crying. Nicki felt horrible. She ruined Safaree's relationship without even trying. And she didn't know what to do. She waited about 5 minutes before leaving her house, then grabbed her keys, threw on a hat, and drove to Drake's.
Once she got to Drake's, she was already crying from the guilt she felt. She knocked on his door and after waiting for few minutes, he finally answered. But before he could say anything, Nicki noticed another woman sitting on Drake's couch.
"Nic why are you crying?" He asked while moving closer. She didn't want to make a scene in front of this random girl, but she was VERY irritated at the fact that Drake had a girl alone in his condo without telling Nicki ahead of time, no matter who she was.
Drake closed the door behind him, he was standing outside with Nicki while the girl was waiting in the condo.
"Who is she?" Nicki asked.
"She's a friend of mine from way back in the day. She is in town and visiting. But why are you crying Nic? Talk to me"
Nicki knew when Drake was lying, and she knew that girl wasn't just a 'friend' of Drake's.
"Just a friend? Okay Drake, and what do you think I am? An idiot?"
Drake looked at Nicki and wiped the tears.
"Okay, my ex-girlfriend. But it's not like that anymore Nic."
"If you bring an ex-girlfriend into your house and don't tell me, and she KNOWS you have a girlfriend and still continues to hit you up..then it's still 'like that' Drake. I gotta go."
Nicki backed away and she stormed to her car and drove off. She kept calling Safaree while crying even harder. But he wouldn't answer his phone and she didn't want to be at the condo alone. The 2 people she always relied on weren't there for the first time. She drove for hours thinking and crying and writing new lyrics because her feelings were taking her over. It was 11:30 and she finally decided to head back to the condo to get some sleep, hoping SB was there. As soon as she walked in, she noticed the condo was empty. She started to get worried where SB was, but she knew he needed the time alone. She changed into one of his baggy shirts and sat on the couch at wait up for him. About 10 minutes later, the house phone rang. Which is very rare because nobody has the house phone number except family or important people to Nicki and SB. She ran over and picked up the phone.
"Hello?" she said in a confused tone.
"Hello. Is the the residance of Safaree Samuels?"
"Yes it is, but he is not here right now. May I ask who is calling?"
"This is the LA police. Is this Ms.Minaj?"
"Yes??" Nicki soon became worried and scared.
"Um Safaree Samuels got in a major car accident. We have him in the emergency room and..."
Nicki hung up the phone before the police man could finish the sentence. She threw on sweats and a hoodie and grabbed her phone and keys and headed straight to the LA Hospital, praying that her bestfriend was okay, and alive.

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The heart-break.

Weeks later since the VMA's and everything was going fine. Drake and Nicki had a wonderful relationship since they started becoming sexually active. While Safaree and Jessa became alot more serious with their relationship as well. SB and Nicki's friendship was stronger than ever. They had never been so close before in YEARS of their friendship. They were 100% honest around eachother and completely themselves. SB knew EVERYTHING that was going on in Nicki's life and all of her thoughts. She shared everything with him. And he did the same. They told eachother things that they would never tell another living soul. Their friendship was strong and un-breakable and everything was running smoothly. But..not for long. Weeks had passed and Jessa was becoming very suspcious about SB's "friendship" with Nicki. At first, Jessa thought it was great how two bestfriends could be so close, but now she just thought they were TOO close. Everytime Jessa would call SB, he would be doing something with Nicki. And everytime she went over, she would walk in with SB and Nicki toghether. When SB was hanging out with Jessa, he would be texting Nicki. Jessa didn't find this normal. She wanted to get to the bottom of this. Were they just good friends? Or were they hiding a relationship from their own partners?
Jessa woke up and called SB one morning.
"Hellllooo Sunshine" SB said as he answered the phone.
"Hi babe. What are you doing?"
"Just being lazy with Nicki haha. Whatcha up too baby?"
"Nothing, can I come over?"
"Sure!"
"Okay, see you in a bit"
Jessa hung up the phone and drove herself to Nicki and SB's condo, she arrived about 15 minutes after the phone call.
*Knock knock*
SB got up off the couch where he was sitting with Nicki and answered the door.
"Hi babe, you look beautiful." while kissing her on the cheek.
"Thanks hunn." Jessa walked over to the living room and sat on the couch where Nicki was sitting, playing with the Music Maker on her MAC laptop and making her own beats.
"Hi doll." Nicki said to Jessa while smiling.
Jessa was already past the fact that Nicki was famous, she just looked at her like a normal human now, and Nicki loved that.
"Heyyy Nic."
SB joined them on the couch while all three were sitting there watching TV and playing on there phones.
A few minutes passed and Jessa was wondering why Nicki didn't move once Jessa sat on the couch. Did she not want Jessa and SB alone?
"Soooo Nickkkiii. Where's Drake? Why aren't you hanging with him?"
As soon as Jessa asked that question, SB knew something was going on and Jessa figured something was up. He could see right through her, and so could Nicki.
"He should be here any minute, we are going to get frozen yogurt and go to the studio toghether." Nicki said in a rude remark while grabbing her laptop and moving into her bedroom.
Jessa felt guilty for coming off as suspicious to Nicki so she looked down at her phone as Nicki stormed off.
"Jessa, comeon now." SB said.
"I...I...." Jessa didn't know what to say. But the sound of a doorbell cut her off as SB walked up to answer it.
"Hey Drake." SB said while doing their little handshake.
"Hey man, where's Nic? She's usually sitting with you?"
"She's in her room working on beats." SB said with a smile, trying to calm down the awkward tension in the room.
Drake knocked on Nicki's door and opened it as he ran and jumped on the bed with her.
"BABE I AM SOOO PROUD OF YOU. I HEARD YOUR NEW SONG 'TURN ME ON' WITH DAVID GUETTA. LOVE IT BABYGIRL, AWESOME JOB."
Nicki smiled and leaned in to kiss him, Drake ALWAYS knew what to say to turn Nicki's mood around. Nicki grabbed her phone and purse and walked out the door with Drake.
"I'll be back later SB, love you bye!" she kissed SB on the cheek and walked out with Drake, paying no attention to Jessa still sitting on the couch.
About 10 minutes later, SB's phone lit up and it was a text from Nicki. "SEE!!" Jessa screamed. She couldn't take it anymore.
"What's wrong with you?" SB asked while adjusting hiself on the couch.
"Something about you and Nicki is suspicious Safaree. Look, I don't know what the fuck your hiding from me. But I know that no 'bestfriends' are with eachother every second of the day, and when they aren't together they are texting and calling eachother. Something is up Safaree. Explain to me now or I am leaving."
SB looked at Jessa with a confused look as he begin to speak. "Jessa, Nicki and I had a few bumps in the road in the past, and it's made us closer than ever. We love being bestfriends and we know that it's us against the world..." before he could continue speaking, Jessa cut him off.
"Do you love her?" she asked.
SB sat there while playing with his fingernails. He never got over his feelings for Nicki, he just learned how to control them. He will ALWAYS love and be IN love with Nicki. But he really did see her as an amazing bestfriend. He loved Jessa as well, last thing he would ever do is lie to her.
"HELLO" Jessa said while snapping in SB's face. "Do you love her..Safaree?"
SB looked up at Jessa, he could see how angry she looked and how impatient she was for an answer.
"Look Jessa. I'm in love with Nicki. I always have been. But we will never be anything. I met you and you changed my life, I am blessed to have you as mine. I would never do anything to hurt you, I love you Jessa."
Tears started to come to Jessa's face as she started walking out. "I see the way you look at her Safaree. You're madly in love with that woman. And I can't share you." she wiped her tears and she walked herself out of the condo and left SB alone on the couch. He was crushed. He finally started to love again, but his heart was broken again by Nicki. When she didn't even do anything. SB moved from the couch into his bedroom and closed the door. He finally checked the text from Nicki as it said "I'll backoff if she makes you happy, because all I want is to see you happy. I love you so much."

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Sooner than later.

The day EVERYONE was waiting on was finally here. The VMA's. Nicki spent the whole day with her glam squad getting her nails, hair, and makeup done. She looked PERFECT.
She drove to VMA's with Safaree and met up with her YMCMB family once she arrived. Once she stepped foot on the red carpet, everyone went crazy for her. She always knew how to catch everyone's attention. Including Drake's. Drake saw Nicki and his heart lit up, she looked beautiful and he couldn't wait for her to go home with him tonight, even though she had no idea what was going on. Sarfaree on the other hand, he watched Drake very closely. He watched the way Drake smiled when he saw Nicki and the way he looked at her. Safaree knew Drake was in love, he could tell since he was once in that position. Drake and Nicki agreed not to show any public affection, even though most of the media knew about them. As they were talking to take their seats, Drake pulled Nicki into a corner where nobody could see them. He kissed her passionately with his arms around her waist.
"Hello to you too." Nicki said while laughing.
"You look...they haven't even made a word for how amazing you look." Drake replied.
She smiled and grabbed his hand as they walked in toghether with Nicki holding Drake's hand, not caring who was looking or snapping pictures.
Nicki said hi to her YMCMB family and sat in between Drake and SB. She was so happy at this point, she loved her life and everyone who surrounded her. The night went on as they watched the amazing artists win their awards. Nicki was having a blast meeting new people and taking pictures with her favorite celebs. Once everyone sat back down after the break, the next award was up.
"Our next award is for best video collab." said the speaker.
Drake and Nicki looked at eachother because their song "Moment 4 Life" had been nomiated.
Once they started to name the nominees, Drake grabbed Nicki's hand and kissed it, waiting for them to announce the winners.
"And the winner for the best video collab is........NICKI MINAJ AND DRAKE, MOMENT 4 LIFE."
The crowd went wild when Nicki and Drake stood up and hugged eachother. She hugged SB and Lil Wayne then made her way to the stage with Drake behind her. Once she grabbed the award, Nicki spoke first.
"Wow...I never know what to say at these things, because it still hasn't hit me how honored and blessed I am. I love my team, I love my family, I love my barbz, I love everyone who told me I can, and I love everyone who has told me I can't..because every word has gotten me where I am. Thank you to EVERYONE for EVERYTHING. I am honored..I can't even begin with names because I would be here all night *chuckles* This is my moment 4 life. MWAH." The crowd went wild. Drake grabbed Nicki's hand which made them scream even louder. He went to speak after Nicki.
"I am blessed I got to make this song with such a beautiful person. And the fact that we won a VMA for it makes me even more blessed. I just want to thank my team, my family, and every single one of my AMAZING supporters. Love you all!! YMCMB. Oh and Nicki..." he turned straight at her and looked her in the eyes on stage. Everyone was silent waiting for what was going it to happen. "Tonight, it's happening sooner than later." Nicki's eyes grew large with shock and excitment and he reached in and kissed her on stage. He picked her up as they waved to everyone and walked on stage. The crowd was going WILD. The host couldn't even speak or calm them down. SB's smile was HUGE, he was the only one that really knew what was going on and he was more than happy. Once they sat back in their seats, Nicki was too shy to speak or even look up because she knew everyone was staring. Drake leaned over and whispered "I love you." in her ear. Tonight was magical already.
 The VMA's were over and everyone said their goodbyes. Nicki walked over to the car with SB to go home but SB stopped her. "Are you crazy? Did you not hear Drake say it was happening TONIGHT? Get in his car girl, your not allowed home." Nicki smiled at SB, kissed him on the cheek, and hugged him tight. "I'm nothing without you." she said while walked over to Drake.
"SB said I'm not allowed home." Nicki said while laughing.
"Yep, that was the plan." Drake winked at Nicki and took her to the VMA after-party with him. They didn't stay too long, because they had a long night ahead of them. They showed up and said hi to everyone they saw. They had a few drinks and hit the road. Drake was buzzin and Nicki was a little tipsy, so the car ride home was all laughs. Once Drake opened the door to his condo, Nicki was amazed. There was a chocolate fountain, a huge vase with roses, and a buffet full of sliced fruit to dip in the fountain. Drake smiled. "Let's get comfy." he said.
Drake took off his suit and threw on a pair of sweats over his boxers with no top. Nicki threw on his over-sized YMCMB shirt with only her bra and underwear on under it. Drake poured them to glasses of wine as he sat Nicki on the counter top and fed her chocolate-dipped fruit. He covered her eyes with a bandana and made her guess which fruit it was.
After a few fruits, Drake said "You ready for the next one." as he leaned in closer to her "Mmmm yes sir." she replied. He leaned in and kissed her while removing the bandana. She started to lean back on the counter top, while drake slid most of the fruit down the counter. He climbed on the counter-top, on top of her. Nicki leaned her hand back and dipped her 2 fingers in the chocolate fountain. She placed them in Drake's mouth as he licked every inch of chocolate off. Drake grabbed a can of whip cream and sprayed it on his two fingers, letting Nicki lick off the whip cream. Nicki grabbed the whip cream from Drake's hand and started spraying it on him and laughing. He bounced off the counter-top and ran straight into his bedroom and Nicki followed him laughing and spraying the whip cream. He grabbed her and and threw her on the bed while she was still laughing about the whip cream all over him.
 "You wanna play like that huh?" he said while leaning into to kiss her. They immdiately started undressing eachother while kissing and Drake grabbed the whip cream bottle. He sprayed it all over her naked body while laughing. "DRAKKEEE, I'M GOING TO BE ALL STICKY NOW." Nicki said in her whiney voice. Drake winked back at her and started to lick off all the whip cream off her body. She started to let out moans as he made his way down her body. Her legs were wrapped around his back while his face was in between her thighs. Last time they did this, Drake pulled away.
But Nicki knew that wasn't happening tonight. He looked up at her before moving his face into her. She looked at him and leaned her head back, waiting for him to begin. Once his tounge hit her, she immadiately moaned. She was so sensetive to him since she had never had him before. He started off at the slow pace, then sped it up. He had Nicki screaming and pulling away but he wasn't making it easy for her. He had his hands strapped to her and he moved his tounge back and forth at an amazingly fast pace. After a few minutes, Nicki grabbed the back of Drake's head and pushed it into herself even more "RIIIIIIGHT THERE" she screamed while moaning.
Drake knew that was the spot. He sucked and sped up even harder as he felt Nicki's body tighten and clench up which she screamed at him not to stop. Once the amazing jolt left her body and her eyes opened, Drake released himself and looked up at Nicki while she was out of breathe, laying under him, very pleased that he already hit her spot. She watched Drake as he pulled out a condom and slipped it on, she began to prepare herself as Drake started to stick it in. Before he started moving he looked up at Nicki. "Worth the wait." she said while he started to dig in it. He had her all over the bed, tossing and turning, screaming and moaning, she couldn't take the pain but she wasn't giving up until she gave Drake what he had been waiting for. "Ahhhhh" Drake screamed. Nicki knew he was about to cum because Drake was only moaning before that, not screaming. "I'm cooommm.."
Drake couldn't even speaking because of the amazing feeling that took over his body. Nicki could feel the tension while she felt his chest up and down, and once it released, she watched him pull out. He layed next to her in complete shock. "Oh...my...god." We're the only words that came out of this mouth. He layed there while Nicki kissed all over his body, beggining to move herself downwards. She kissed all around the inside of his thigs for a minute straight, just to tease him.
Then she let her mouth do the work. "Fuckin Nicki Minaj" he moaned while she started moving up and down stroking him. After a few minutes, she swung her legs over his body and sat on top of him while he stuck it in her. She rode up and down while he held her breasts and moved his hands all around his body. Nicki heard a timer go off and she looked at Drake as he smiled and picked her up. He walked her into his bathroom with the lights dimmed and rose pedals everywhere. The jets where on in the bathtub and the bathwater was filled with lavendar scented bubbles and the perfect warm water. Nicki walked over to the mirror, removed her fake eyeleases and wig, because she didn't know what she was going to get herself into. Once she dipped her legs in the water Drake spoke.
"Don't get all the way it just yet." Drake left the room and came back with two glasses of champange and a blunt. She shook her head and smiled as he sat next to her. They shared the blunt and drank the champange while Nicki leaned on Drake's chest singing to him. "Boy you got my heartbeat running awaayyy, beating like a drum and it's comin you waayy."
She could feel his heart-beat running faster and faster. Drake turned around and grabbed a bottle of lotion. He sat behind Nicki and rubbed the lotion all over her body, giving her a full body massage. After letting out a few moans, Drake guided her into the massive bath-tub while kissing her. He stopped the jets as he started feeling on Nicki under the water and sticking his two fingers into her. Very low jazz music was playing in the background while Nicki closed her eyes and enjoyed the pleasure Drake was giving her.
She soon felt a tounge hit her under-water. She jolted up and noticed that Drake's face was under-water and his tounge was back to work. Every minute he would come up and a breathe of air and smile a Nicki until she finally flew herself on top of him and let him stick it in. Once he was in she begun bouncing up and down on top of him. She was moaning so loud while Drake licked her fingers and kept his hands on her ass. He moved her out of the bathtub and got her a towel while they walked into the kitchen. Nicki was watching Drake as he pulled out a chocolate cake and sat it on the counter. They began eating the cake toghether, both speechless on how amazing the night had been.
Nicki grabbed Drake and kissed him, he turned her around and went in from behind while she layed the upper of her body on the kitchen table. After a few minutes she layed him on the table and jumped on top of him, but opposite because she was getting ready to position herself to 69. He was eating her while she was licking him, she swung her legs back over him and jumped off the table and laughed as she walked back over to the cake and continued eating it.
Drake was half asleep at this point, but he picked up Nicki and layed her on the bed while singing her to sleep.

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