The next morning was heart-breaking. There wasn't a sound in the condo. It was just starting to hit Safaree and Nicki that the baby is gone before it was even born. Nicki's room was still locked and she still wasn't responding to anyone, so Safaree decided to cook her breakfast, hoping the smell would make her come out of her room. Safaree made Nicki's favorite breakfast: cheesy scrambled eggs, chocolate chip pancakes, turkey sausage, bacon, and a fruit salad. He sat on the couch waiting for Nicki to come out of her room, then his phone lit up with a twitter post from Nicki. It read:
"Goodmorning barbz. Yesterday was a horrifying day. I had a mis-carriage. I lost my baby while I was 6 months pregnant, she meant everything to me. And yes, it was a girl. Nobody knew that I knew the sex of the baby, I wanted to keep it a suprise. I am heart-broken she has left my life. Just trying to see the positivty in every negative situation, it's very difficult. Be thankful to open your eyes to another day. Love you TM, xo. -HB."
The tweet brought tears to Safaree's eyes, but he quickly wiped them way and set down his phone when he heard Nicki come from around the corner.
"Nicki! Goodmorning!" Safaree said. He tried sounding as heart-felt as possible. He was going to be everything to make her feel better. The first thing he noticed were her swollen eyes from crying and the frown that was stuck on her face. He has seen Nicki at her absolute worse..but it's never been this bad.
"I made us breakfast Nic." he started moving all the food from the stove to the kitchen table.
"Thank you Safaree." Nicki replied in a very quiet low tone, her voice was crackly and it almost sounded like she was whispering.
Once they sat to eat, there was no conversastion going on, which was un-normal for the two. Safaree didn't know what to say, he felt like anything he said would relate back to the baby, which was the last thing he wanted to bring up. He looked at Nicki to see she was playing with her food on her plate, not really eating much. She got up from the table as she started walking up the stairs to the nursery room they had just finished designing, Safaree followed right behind her. If he was going to be there for Nicki like he promised Drake and like the good bestfriend he is, he was going to be there every step of the way. He leaned on the door of the nursery room as he watched Nicki take down everything she worked on. Safaree could do nothing but watch the tears roll down Nicki's face as she threw all the sheets, pillows, stuffed animals, diapers, gifts, socks, etc. in the corner of the room.
At this point, Nicki was laying in the middle of the room trying to catch her breathe from all the tears. Safaree sat next to sit and picked her up. He sat in the rocking chair they built together and put Nicki on his lap. As she was sitting on his lap, she was ripping off all the wallpaper designs printed on the wall.
"Nicki, stop." Safaree said in a low calm tone. He could feel the pain in her heart. She continued to rip the wall-paper. "Nicki." he said, in the same tone. She started banging on the wall with her fists, Safaree grabbed her arms and laid her in his chest while she hysterically cried. He shirt was drenched in her tears, but he didn't mind. As long as she was in his arms, he felt as if he was protecting her..that's all he wanted to do.
About 10 minutes later, Safaree tried getting Nicki to talk.
"Nic, are you gonna talk to me?"
Nicki simply stood up and left the room, he followed her once again, but she walked into her room and locked the door, leaving Safaree outside. He took a deep breathe and started to clean the kitchen while waiting for Nicki. That same say he canceled any plans/apperances that Nicki had planned for the next few weeks. Everybody was very understanding.
But 3 days had passed and nothing had changed.
Nicki would wake up, have a few bites of breakfast Safaree made for her..then walk back into her room. The only thing Safaree could hear were Nicki's sobs that echoed through the house and her daily phone calls to her mom.
Safaree picked up the phone and called Drake.
Drake: "Hi man! How's everything? Nic feeling better?"
Safaree could tell Drake sounded different, more sad than usual. He could tell the loss of the child was affecting him.
Safaree: "I wish man. She's been really depressed. She hasn't talked to me about it at all, I've been trying to get her to open up but she just won't. I'm going to give her doctor a call and see what I can do. How are you man? You doing okay?"
Drake: "Ah man, please call the doctor. Maybe he will know what to do to help her. I just want her to be okay. And I'm okay, I could be better."
Safaree: "I will Drake, don't worry. I'll send you texts and call you soon to keep you updated. Just keep your head up, it's going to be okay."
Drake: "Thank you Safaree, I'll talk to you soon."
The phone call ended and Safaree called the doctor soon after. The doctor told Safaree that Nicki isn't responding because she is going through depression, which is what is expected with mis-carriages. He told Safaree he needs to take her to therapy sessions because it's not healthy for her to be depressed and stressed for this long. So that's excatly what Safaree did. He scheduled Nicki an appointment with a thearapist for tommorow afternoon at 2:30. He walked into Nicki's room to tell her.
"Hey Nic." Safaree said. He got no response from Nicki. He took a deep breathe as he watched her laying in bed. He spoke again. "I spoke with your doctor and he told me what you're doing is unhealthy and that you needed to see a thearapist. So I scheduled you an appointment for tommorow at 2:30 to see one of the BEST thearapists in LA." He stood at the end of Nicki's bed as he waited for a response. "Okay?" Safaree asked after no reply from Nicki.
"Okay Safaree." Nicki said in a melacholony tone. She grabbed another tissue and wiped her nose and eyes. Safaree pulled up a chair and sat in Nicki's room with her. It was completely silent, but he didn't mind. As long as he was showing Nicki he wasn't going anywhere. He sat in the chair until they both fell asleep.
The next morning struck as the sun woke up Safaree through Nicki's window. He opened his eyes to see Nicki's bed empty. Then he turned around and noticed she was already out of bed and in the shower, getting ready for her thearapy appointment. Safaree could tell Nicki was ready for this, she was finally ready to open up. He ran into the shower and got ready as well, because it was NOT something he wanted to miss.
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Thursday, September 29, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Stress kills.
Hi guys! I made this chapter a little bit shorter than usual just because the next few ones will be alot longer and filled with more drama. I really hope you enjoy! The more feedback I get, the more I am inspired to write so PLEASE comment the blogs or write to me on twitter (@TheFightForLove), enjoy :)
Nicki was finally adjusting to a new lifestyle. She had a new diet, a new daily plan, and a new perspective. She was starting enjoy this new life she lived. Nicki and Drake we're still working on things, but they weren't back in a relationship yet, and SB and Nicki were still the best of friends. Drake would visit Nicki almost everyday, and had been going to every doctor appointment with her.
About a month later, Nicki was going to see the doctor again, the 3rd time seeing the doctor in a week. She was DYING to see him because she had been having un-bearable pains in her stomach. She couldn't eat, couldn't move, and the pains stressed her out..which her doctor told her she should NOT be doing. Nicki laid on her bed and waited until Drake picked her up, she didn't even have the strength to get ready for the doctor's appointment. SB walked in her room.
SB: "How are you feeling Nic? Any better?"
Nicki: "No."
She began crying once again. She was emotional, moody, stressed, and in pain but SB was always there to help. He laid in bed next to her, nose to nose as he rubbed her cheek.
SB: "It's gonna be okay. You got me, I'm not going anywhere. I love you Nic, I do. Very much."
Nicki started crying even more, but this time they were tears of joy. She smiled as she moved closer to Safaree, he leaned into Nicki as he softly pecked her lips. He pulled away and looked at Nicki, waiting for a reaction. Nicki grabbed his cheeks and pulled him in for more. She slipped her tounge into his mouth and enjoyed every second of it. She had been horny for weeks, and this made her even more horny. SB started moving his hand under her pants, feeling on her clit through her underwear, this immdiately made Nicki wet.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
"Fuck." Nicki said. She pulled away and ran over to the door while adjusting her hair and wiping her lips. She opened the door to find Drake standing there with a smile.
"APPOINTMENT NUMBER 3, LET'S DO IT!" He said with a smile. His positive attitude always made Nicki laugh. She turned around as she winked at SB and walked out with Drake.
SB sat on the couch, more confused than ever. Last time he hooked up with Nicki, they were drunk..and it meant nothing. But this time, they were both sober..and they both felt a spark when their lips touched. Safaree didn't know what to make of it, but he just waited until Nicki brought it up, he didn't want it to be like what happened with them last time. He loved Nicki, he wouldn't do anything to get back to that point.
Meanwhile, Nicki finally pulled up to the doctor's office. She jumped out of the car straight to the room she was assigned to every two weeks. She patiently waited for the doctor as she explained the pains she felt to Drake and he researched them on his phone. Finally the doctor walked in.
Doctor: "Okay Ms.Maraj. I see you have un-bearable pains in your stomach daily, which isn't normal. I'm going give you an ultra-sound and see if everything is healthy with the baby." He leaned Nicki back as he squirted the blue cold gel on her baby bump. The coldness made her giggle..but the doctor's facial expressions made her smile fade away. She saw the distraught look on his face when he was looking at the scans.
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj I am going to need to do a CAT Scan on your stomach, please follow me this way."
At this point, Nicki was terrified, she didn't understand what the big deal was. She started getting teary eyed as Drake grabbed her hand, walking her into the room to get CAT scanned. Once they walked in the room, the doctor brought a few other nurses with him to do the tests. Nicki laid on the scanner as X-Rays were being taken. About 30 minutes later, the doctor came in with answers for Nicki and Drake.
Nicki: "What happened? Please, I've been stressing out while you make me wait here."
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj, there is no easy way for me to say this...(he took a deep breathe as he gave the X-Rays to Nicki)...you've had a mis-carriage, I believe it was due to the amount of stress you had. You lost your baby. I am truly sorry."
He rubbed her shoulder as Nicki stared at the floor. She was completely numb, completely in shock, she could feel the beating of her heart come out of her ears, the pain of her stomach took over her body. She was broken.
The doctor left the room, he let Drake know the pains should go away within the next week, and to keep her as calm as possible.
Drake walked over to Nicki and tried talking to her, but she was speechless. She grabbed her phone and purse and walked straight to the car. The whole way home was silent. Nicki was in tears at this point, she couldn't process her feelings or express them.
Drake opened Nicki's condo and walked her to her room, she was still speechless. She closed and locked the door as Drake walked back to the couch and told SB the horrifying news.
Drake also explained to SB that he needed to keep Nicki calm and stress-free because she was already risking her health by stressing out. Drake was going to be traveling the next few weeks to finish the final touches on his album, so he told SB to please take care of her and he will try visiting and calling as much as possible. He wrote Nicki a note telling her how much he loved her and how sorry he was. He stuck it under her door as he left the condo, in tears, he lost his baby before he could even look into it's beautiful eyes.
About a month later, Nicki was going to see the doctor again, the 3rd time seeing the doctor in a week. She was DYING to see him because she had been having un-bearable pains in her stomach. She couldn't eat, couldn't move, and the pains stressed her out..which her doctor told her she should NOT be doing. Nicki laid on her bed and waited until Drake picked her up, she didn't even have the strength to get ready for the doctor's appointment. SB walked in her room.
SB: "How are you feeling Nic? Any better?"
Nicki: "No."
She began crying once again. She was emotional, moody, stressed, and in pain but SB was always there to help. He laid in bed next to her, nose to nose as he rubbed her cheek.
SB: "It's gonna be okay. You got me, I'm not going anywhere. I love you Nic, I do. Very much."
Nicki started crying even more, but this time they were tears of joy. She smiled as she moved closer to Safaree, he leaned into Nicki as he softly pecked her lips. He pulled away and looked at Nicki, waiting for a reaction. Nicki grabbed his cheeks and pulled him in for more. She slipped her tounge into his mouth and enjoyed every second of it. She had been horny for weeks, and this made her even more horny. SB started moving his hand under her pants, feeling on her clit through her underwear, this immdiately made Nicki wet.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
"Fuck." Nicki said. She pulled away and ran over to the door while adjusting her hair and wiping her lips. She opened the door to find Drake standing there with a smile.
"APPOINTMENT NUMBER 3, LET'S DO IT!" He said with a smile. His positive attitude always made Nicki laugh. She turned around as she winked at SB and walked out with Drake.
SB sat on the couch, more confused than ever. Last time he hooked up with Nicki, they were drunk..and it meant nothing. But this time, they were both sober..and they both felt a spark when their lips touched. Safaree didn't know what to make of it, but he just waited until Nicki brought it up, he didn't want it to be like what happened with them last time. He loved Nicki, he wouldn't do anything to get back to that point.
Meanwhile, Nicki finally pulled up to the doctor's office. She jumped out of the car straight to the room she was assigned to every two weeks. She patiently waited for the doctor as she explained the pains she felt to Drake and he researched them on his phone. Finally the doctor walked in.
Doctor: "Okay Ms.Maraj. I see you have un-bearable pains in your stomach daily, which isn't normal. I'm going give you an ultra-sound and see if everything is healthy with the baby." He leaned Nicki back as he squirted the blue cold gel on her baby bump. The coldness made her giggle..but the doctor's facial expressions made her smile fade away. She saw the distraught look on his face when he was looking at the scans.
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj I am going to need to do a CAT Scan on your stomach, please follow me this way."
At this point, Nicki was terrified, she didn't understand what the big deal was. She started getting teary eyed as Drake grabbed her hand, walking her into the room to get CAT scanned. Once they walked in the room, the doctor brought a few other nurses with him to do the tests. Nicki laid on the scanner as X-Rays were being taken. About 30 minutes later, the doctor came in with answers for Nicki and Drake.
Nicki: "What happened? Please, I've been stressing out while you make me wait here."
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj, there is no easy way for me to say this...(he took a deep breathe as he gave the X-Rays to Nicki)...you've had a mis-carriage, I believe it was due to the amount of stress you had. You lost your baby. I am truly sorry."
He rubbed her shoulder as Nicki stared at the floor. She was completely numb, completely in shock, she could feel the beating of her heart come out of her ears, the pain of her stomach took over her body. She was broken.
The doctor left the room, he let Drake know the pains should go away within the next week, and to keep her as calm as possible.
Drake walked over to Nicki and tried talking to her, but she was speechless. She grabbed her phone and purse and walked straight to the car. The whole way home was silent. Nicki was in tears at this point, she couldn't process her feelings or express them.
Drake opened Nicki's condo and walked her to her room, she was still speechless. She closed and locked the door as Drake walked back to the couch and told SB the horrifying news.
Drake also explained to SB that he needed to keep Nicki calm and stress-free because she was already risking her health by stressing out. Drake was going to be traveling the next few weeks to finish the final touches on his album, so he told SB to please take care of her and he will try visiting and calling as much as possible. He wrote Nicki a note telling her how much he loved her and how sorry he was. He stuck it under her door as he left the condo, in tears, he lost his baby before he could even look into it's beautiful eyes.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
For every "Goodbye" is a new "Hello."
Excuse any of the typos you guys may find, I try to revise the story as much as possible but I am a very fast typer. Anyways, ENJOY! :)
The next morning, Nicki paid no attention to the fight that happened last night. She didn't even let the thought cross her mind. She was too busy worrying about the missed phone call and tweet she recieved last night from Jay, the first man Nicki ever loved..and the first man that ever broke her heart.
She ran into Safaree's room to tell him the news, but he already knew.
Nicki: "SAFAREEE DID YOU SEE.."
SB but Nicki off.
Safaree: "The tweet and missed call from Jay? Yes I did. I don't want you seeing that man Nicki. Not after what he put you through, that isn't happening again."
Nicki: "Safaree, he's not going to get to me like he used to. He was my first love, and I am going to see him. I already called him back, we are getting lunch so I am going to get ready."
SB knew there was nothing he could do, if Nicki wanted to see Jay, she was going to do it and there was nothing SB could do/say to stop her. Before she left on her date, SB warned her about all past..."I just want you to remeber the way he treated you. The way he would walk out, leaving you to cry, the way he verbally put you down..always reminding you that you were never good enough for him. He made your life hell for months after he left you Nicki. Don't put trust into someone that walked away from you. He could be using you for your sucess, just be careful." SB said. Nicki kissed him on the cheek and replied "I remeber" as she left the condo.
Nicki pulled up to a yummy Cafe in LA where she was planning on meeting him. She was applying her lipstick as she saw Jay from the corner of her eye, waiting outside of her car. She immadiately smiled as she jumped out of the car on top of him. Their connection was strong. They weren't through the good and bad together, they truly loved eachother, and it soon faded away..but the friendship they shared never died. Nicki loved how Jay was not star-struck at all when being with Nicki. He was excatly how he was from when Nicki last saw him back in Queens a few years back and she loved that. They had an amazing lunch together and caught up on all the old memories, Nicki forgot how much they shared together, and all her feelings started to come back after every day she spent with him since that lunch. They became closer and closer, and although SB wasn't happy with it, it was the happiest he had seen Nicki in quite a while, so he had to deal.
About 2 weeks later, Nicki and Safaree were headed to the doctor's office. Nicki had been complaining about her stomach for about 2 and a half months now, but she never had the time to see a doctor. She occisonally threw up and she was quite moody, but SB just thought it was from all the stress. Once they got to the doctor's, Nicki did a couple tests for her stomach..one of the tests being to pee in a cup. About 10 minutes later, the doctor walked in and looked at Nicki.
"I found out what is bothering your tummy Ms.Maraj."
Nicki jumped up. "WHAT IS IT?" she said, eager to know why she's been having these pains.
"Your 3 months pregnant. Congrats!"
The room became silent. Nicki looked at SB with distraught look on her face and SB in full shock.
"How is that even possible? Are you sure? Can we run more tests?" she asked while starting to tear up.
Doctor: "I've done all the tests I can do, your absoutely pregnant. You had no idea?"
Nicki: "I just thought it was from stress. I mean I always have stomach aches and pains so I was used to it. I've only thrown up a few times..I just didn't think much of it..but I have had acohol in the past 3 months a few times..will that affect anything?"
Doctor: "It may Nicki. You need to start taking things slow and not stress yourself out. I am going to give you a few minutes to talk with Safaree while I go write down your new diet and how you should be handling things."
Nicki: "Thank you."
The doctor left the room, and the tears streamed down Nicki's face. SB scooted her over and sat next to her.
"Drake." Nicki said.
It couldn't have been Jay who got Nicki pregnant, because he had only been back in Nicki's life for about a month and a half now, plus, Nicki only had sex with him once and he wore a condom. 3 months and a half months ago was the last time Nicki had sex with Drake, and that was the only man she was seeing.
Safaree: "Did the boy not use a condom?"
Nicki: "It must have broke. It's him forshure. I was only seeing Drake 3 months ago."
Nicki picked up her phone and texted Drake for the first time since the fight at Wayne's house. "I need to come over right now Drake." she started to grab her things to leave as the doctor walked back in, giving her a list of things to eat and ways to not stress out.
"You will need this. I know you have had alcohol and stressed out in the past 3 months so I need to see you every two weeks and make sure the baby is okay." The doctor said.
"I will be here." Nicki replied, she hugged the doctor and grabbed SB's hand as she walked out. She got in the car and started driving.
"Where are we going?" Safaree asked.
"I have to go say goodbye to Jay. The first thing on this list says to end any sexual relationships I am having with anyone besides the father, it's stressful and unhealthy. I'll drop you off at home if you want Safaree." Nicki said while starting to tear up.
"No way. I am staying with you. I will wait in the car while you talk to Jay, and I will drive." Safaree rubbed Nicki's back as she pulled up to the apartment Jay was currently staying at until he had to fly back to Queens in the next few weeks.
Nicki knocked on the door and Jay let her in, he could tell something was going on.
Nicki: "I came here...to...."
Nicki immadiately started to cry. Jay held her in his arms while they say on the couch.
Jay: "It's okay babygirl, just say what's going on."
Nicki: "This is my goodbye to you. I am 3 months pregnant by somebody else and I had no idea until today. I can't be with you, it's unhealthy. And I can't keep seeing you everyday like I have been for this past month, I have to let go of all the feelings I have held towards you. This is my goodbye."
The conversastion went on for about 15 more minutes, Jay completely understood and did everything to make Nicki feel better, they agreed that they could Video Call eachother once a month and he would see Nicki whenever she was in town, or he was in town. He simply kissed her on the cheek as he watched the woman that he love fade off in the distance. And she wiped her tears as she walked away from the first man she loved.
Once she got in the car with Safaree, her phone lit up. It was Drake. "Just got home..come over." Safaree then drove Nicki to Drake's house as she held her stomach because she was feeling sharp pains, and she knew it was from the stress on her pregnancy. "Safaree I will text you when I am ready to be picked up, this may take a little longer." She closed the door and blew Safaree a kiss as she whispered "Thank you bestfriend" out of her mouth. He knew excatly what she said, he smiled and drove off as Nicki walked into Drakes.
Nicki: "Hi."
Drake flew up as he ran to her and hugged her, he missed her so much and felt so incomplete. Seeing Nicki brought him to tears, and seeing Drake brought her to tears.
They both made theirselves comfortable on the couch and Drake brought out ice-cold waters with cranberries and almonds for Nicki, her favorite snack. They caught up and Nicki told Drake all about Jay, being completely honest. And Drake told Nicki that he had been sober since Wayne's party, and he will continue being sober for her. But now it was time to explain why she was really there.
Drake: "Okay so I know you didn't just come here to catch up with me..what's going on?"
Nicki: "Drake...this hasn't been easy for me to come to relazation too..."
Nicki started to tear up and cry as Drake anxiously waited for her to continue as he grasped her hand.
Nicki: "3 months ago was the last time I had sex with you."
Drake had a confused look on his face. He wasn't understandind the purpose of the statement.
Drake: "Okay? And?"
Nicki: "I'm 3 months pregnant."
The room stood still. Nicki was unable to read Drake's reaction, she started to cry more.
Drake finally spoke. "That's beautiful, I am blessed to be apart of something so beautiful."
Nicki and Drake threw eachother in their arms and started to cry with eachother, they were both scared but blessed. Nicki talked to Drake about how the stress and alchol from previously may affect the child and her pegnancy. They made a schedule to go to the doctor's toghether every 2 weeks and Drake wrote down some recipies he suggest for Nicki. If they were going to do this..they were doing it toghether. As a couple or not. Once Safaree picked Nicki up and went home, she laid in bed and thought about her new lifestyle. Everything was about to change...and it's not the way she is expecting.
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The next morning, Nicki paid no attention to the fight that happened last night. She didn't even let the thought cross her mind. She was too busy worrying about the missed phone call and tweet she recieved last night from Jay, the first man Nicki ever loved..and the first man that ever broke her heart.
She ran into Safaree's room to tell him the news, but he already knew.
Nicki: "SAFAREEE DID YOU SEE.."
SB but Nicki off.
Safaree: "The tweet and missed call from Jay? Yes I did. I don't want you seeing that man Nicki. Not after what he put you through, that isn't happening again."
Nicki: "Safaree, he's not going to get to me like he used to. He was my first love, and I am going to see him. I already called him back, we are getting lunch so I am going to get ready."
SB knew there was nothing he could do, if Nicki wanted to see Jay, she was going to do it and there was nothing SB could do/say to stop her. Before she left on her date, SB warned her about all past..."I just want you to remeber the way he treated you. The way he would walk out, leaving you to cry, the way he verbally put you down..always reminding you that you were never good enough for him. He made your life hell for months after he left you Nicki. Don't put trust into someone that walked away from you. He could be using you for your sucess, just be careful." SB said. Nicki kissed him on the cheek and replied "I remeber" as she left the condo.
Nicki pulled up to a yummy Cafe in LA where she was planning on meeting him. She was applying her lipstick as she saw Jay from the corner of her eye, waiting outside of her car. She immadiately smiled as she jumped out of the car on top of him. Their connection was strong. They weren't through the good and bad together, they truly loved eachother, and it soon faded away..but the friendship they shared never died. Nicki loved how Jay was not star-struck at all when being with Nicki. He was excatly how he was from when Nicki last saw him back in Queens a few years back and she loved that. They had an amazing lunch together and caught up on all the old memories, Nicki forgot how much they shared together, and all her feelings started to come back after every day she spent with him since that lunch. They became closer and closer, and although SB wasn't happy with it, it was the happiest he had seen Nicki in quite a while, so he had to deal.
About 2 weeks later, Nicki and Safaree were headed to the doctor's office. Nicki had been complaining about her stomach for about 2 and a half months now, but she never had the time to see a doctor. She occisonally threw up and she was quite moody, but SB just thought it was from all the stress. Once they got to the doctor's, Nicki did a couple tests for her stomach..one of the tests being to pee in a cup. About 10 minutes later, the doctor walked in and looked at Nicki.
"I found out what is bothering your tummy Ms.Maraj."
Nicki jumped up. "WHAT IS IT?" she said, eager to know why she's been having these pains.
"Your 3 months pregnant. Congrats!"
The room became silent. Nicki looked at SB with distraught look on her face and SB in full shock.
"How is that even possible? Are you sure? Can we run more tests?" she asked while starting to tear up.
Doctor: "I've done all the tests I can do, your absoutely pregnant. You had no idea?"
Nicki: "I just thought it was from stress. I mean I always have stomach aches and pains so I was used to it. I've only thrown up a few times..I just didn't think much of it..but I have had acohol in the past 3 months a few times..will that affect anything?"
Doctor: "It may Nicki. You need to start taking things slow and not stress yourself out. I am going to give you a few minutes to talk with Safaree while I go write down your new diet and how you should be handling things."
Nicki: "Thank you."
The doctor left the room, and the tears streamed down Nicki's face. SB scooted her over and sat next to her.
"Drake." Nicki said.
It couldn't have been Jay who got Nicki pregnant, because he had only been back in Nicki's life for about a month and a half now, plus, Nicki only had sex with him once and he wore a condom. 3 months and a half months ago was the last time Nicki had sex with Drake, and that was the only man she was seeing.
Safaree: "Did the boy not use a condom?"
Nicki: "It must have broke. It's him forshure. I was only seeing Drake 3 months ago."
Nicki picked up her phone and texted Drake for the first time since the fight at Wayne's house. "I need to come over right now Drake." she started to grab her things to leave as the doctor walked back in, giving her a list of things to eat and ways to not stress out.
"You will need this. I know you have had alcohol and stressed out in the past 3 months so I need to see you every two weeks and make sure the baby is okay." The doctor said.
"I will be here." Nicki replied, she hugged the doctor and grabbed SB's hand as she walked out. She got in the car and started driving.
"Where are we going?" Safaree asked.
"I have to go say goodbye to Jay. The first thing on this list says to end any sexual relationships I am having with anyone besides the father, it's stressful and unhealthy. I'll drop you off at home if you want Safaree." Nicki said while starting to tear up.
"No way. I am staying with you. I will wait in the car while you talk to Jay, and I will drive." Safaree rubbed Nicki's back as she pulled up to the apartment Jay was currently staying at until he had to fly back to Queens in the next few weeks.
Nicki knocked on the door and Jay let her in, he could tell something was going on.
Nicki: "I came here...to...."
Nicki immadiately started to cry. Jay held her in his arms while they say on the couch.
Jay: "It's okay babygirl, just say what's going on."
Nicki: "This is my goodbye to you. I am 3 months pregnant by somebody else and I had no idea until today. I can't be with you, it's unhealthy. And I can't keep seeing you everyday like I have been for this past month, I have to let go of all the feelings I have held towards you. This is my goodbye."
The conversastion went on for about 15 more minutes, Jay completely understood and did everything to make Nicki feel better, they agreed that they could Video Call eachother once a month and he would see Nicki whenever she was in town, or he was in town. He simply kissed her on the cheek as he watched the woman that he love fade off in the distance. And she wiped her tears as she walked away from the first man she loved.
Once she got in the car with Safaree, her phone lit up. It was Drake. "Just got home..come over." Safaree then drove Nicki to Drake's house as she held her stomach because she was feeling sharp pains, and she knew it was from the stress on her pregnancy. "Safaree I will text you when I am ready to be picked up, this may take a little longer." She closed the door and blew Safaree a kiss as she whispered "Thank you bestfriend" out of her mouth. He knew excatly what she said, he smiled and drove off as Nicki walked into Drakes.
Nicki: "Hi."
Drake flew up as he ran to her and hugged her, he missed her so much and felt so incomplete. Seeing Nicki brought him to tears, and seeing Drake brought her to tears.
They both made theirselves comfortable on the couch and Drake brought out ice-cold waters with cranberries and almonds for Nicki, her favorite snack. They caught up and Nicki told Drake all about Jay, being completely honest. And Drake told Nicki that he had been sober since Wayne's party, and he will continue being sober for her. But now it was time to explain why she was really there.
Drake: "Okay so I know you didn't just come here to catch up with me..what's going on?"
Nicki: "Drake...this hasn't been easy for me to come to relazation too..."
Nicki started to tear up and cry as Drake anxiously waited for her to continue as he grasped her hand.
Nicki: "3 months ago was the last time I had sex with you."
Drake had a confused look on his face. He wasn't understandind the purpose of the statement.
Drake: "Okay? And?"
Nicki: "I'm 3 months pregnant."
The room stood still. Nicki was unable to read Drake's reaction, she started to cry more.
Drake finally spoke. "That's beautiful, I am blessed to be apart of something so beautiful."
Nicki and Drake threw eachother in their arms and started to cry with eachother, they were both scared but blessed. Nicki talked to Drake about how the stress and alchol from previously may affect the child and her pegnancy. They made a schedule to go to the doctor's toghether every 2 weeks and Drake wrote down some recipies he suggest for Nicki. If they were going to do this..they were doing it toghether. As a couple or not. Once Safaree picked Nicki up and went home, she laid in bed and thought about her new lifestyle. Everything was about to change...and it's not the way she is expecting.
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Sunday, September 18, 2011
The Fight For Love.
Days passed. Weeks passed. It had been almost 2 months since Nicki had seen/talked to Drake since he walked out on her. Everyday was a new step for her, she was slowly starting to realize that Drake was probaly not going to come back to her and it was time to move on..and she was willing to let go.
Fashion Week had just ended in New York, Nicki and her team were headed back to LA to work on her album and prepare for the IHeartRadio Music Festival. Once she landed and got comfortable back at her condo, she got a phone call from Lil Wayne.
Nicki: "WAAAYYNNEEEE! HI BABY!"
Wayne: "Hi Nicc, how are you?"
Nicki: "I'm good I'm good, just got home from New York!"
Wayne: "Perfect timing. We are having a party tonight at my house in celebration of Birdman's new single (Y.U.Mad) and because I miss my Young Money family"
Nicki: "Of course I will be there, wouldn't miss it for the world. See you then Wayne MWAH!"
Wayne: "Okay bye Nic."
The first thoughts through Nicki's head was Drake. She hadn't seen or spoke to him in over 2 months and she knew tommorow night they were going to be re-united. She made Safaree sit and watch her try on outfit after outfit and wig after wig. She finally picked the perfect outfit.
Nicki wore her long blonde wig with a black blazer that was cut to show her clevage and cheetah bra, the blazer also cut on the bottom so it also showed her mid-drift. She matched with Chinese leggings that had a bunch of different desings within them, and cheeah printed heels. She had glitter eyeshadow with thick black eyeliner, and of course, her pink lipstick. She looked beautiful.
Safaree and Nicki ate dinner toghether and hopped in their white Range Rover, getting ready to begin the night. Once they arrived at Wayne's house, Nicki took a deep breathe and walked in. She smiled as big as possible when she saw her Young Money family all together again. She walked around and hugged everyone and had small conversastion, until she reached Drake. Once she walked to Drake, she could tell he had already been drinking, so it would be eaiser to hold conversastion with him now that he was drunk.
Nicki: "Hi Drake."
She leaned over and hugged him and he grasped her so tight, not wanting to let go.
Drake: "Well look at you, you look stunning."
He smiled at Nicki and kissed her hand, she smiled back and she walked off to say hi to everyone else. Nicki was playing hard to get, she knew that she wasn't going to make it easy for Drake to get back what he left. The night when on and Drake followed Nicki like a lost puppy. Of course, she paid no attention to him, because that would ruin her plan. Nicki thought it was funny to mess with Drake's emotions, she thought it was the payback he deserved. So she went to the bar and sat with a guy she had met earlier in the night, drinking and flirting with him. But it wasn't long until Drake couldn't take it anymore. The man slowly started to kiss Nicki on her neck, and that's when Drake made his move.
"I don't know who the fuck you think you are, but you better back the fuck up if you think you are getting ANYWHERE with this girl tonight." Drake screamed while pushing the man away.
"Drake what the fuck?" Nicki exclaimed. But she knew excatly what was going on.
"Ay don't touch me bro." The random man replied while pushing Drake even harder.
Drake threw the first punch, at this point he was an angry drunk and he wasn't going easy on this guy. Drake beat the living shit out of the guy until Wayne finally ran over and pulled them apart. The man was a friend of Wayne's, his name was Robert. Not only was Wayne embarrased that Drake fought his good friend, he was embarrased that Nicki was the one who started it out of revenge, he was dissapointed in both Nicki and Drake and asked them to leave his house until they could discuss things privately.
Drake left with his bestfriend and producer 40, and Nicki left with Safaree. Drake was screaming things at Nicki in the parking lot, but Nicki couldn't understand what he was saying, and she was too busy getting yelled at by SB on the way to the car.
"Nicki why would you do this? You KNEW that if you flirted with Robert, Drake would be upset and you did it anyways and look what you caused..I'm dissapointed. It's not always about getting people back, sometimes it's about letting go. You got yourself into some deep shit, I don't wanna talk to you right now so let's just leave it at that."
Safaree was annoyed with Nicki, and also mad because he got socked a couple times from trying to break up Drake and Robert fighting.
Nicki sat there quiet, not saying a word. Safaree always knew how to get to her, his words always went straight to Nicki's heart. Nicki was on her phone looking at tweets the whole way home. Drake tweeted.."I know you still think about the times we had." which brought Nicki to tears. She tweeted shortly after Drake saying "It's not always about getting people back, sometime's about letting go. Goodnight." That tweet drove Team Minaj CRAZY! They knew something was going on and they wanted to know what, Safree tweeted later in the night "Smh at these niggas."
Once they got home, Nicki ran straight in her room to take off her makeup and wig, and change into comfy clothes. She was upset because Safaree was ignoring her, and she hated it. She turned off her phone and went straight to bed.
Safaree was reading all the tweets on his timeline when he noticed something strange. A man tweeted to Nicki. And it wasn't just any man, it was the first man to ever break Nicki's heart. Safaree hated this man, and he hated seeing the tweet he sent to Nicki. It read: "I tried calling you, I think you're phone is off. We have some catching up to do Onika. Call when you see this."
Nicki was CRAZY in love with him. She loved him with all his heart, when they broke up, she was broken for months straight. Safaree hated him because of all the pain he caused. And he was NOT okay with him coming back into Nicki's life now.
Fashion Week had just ended in New York, Nicki and her team were headed back to LA to work on her album and prepare for the IHeartRadio Music Festival. Once she landed and got comfortable back at her condo, she got a phone call from Lil Wayne.
Nicki: "WAAAYYNNEEEE! HI BABY!"
Wayne: "Hi Nicc, how are you?"
Nicki: "I'm good I'm good, just got home from New York!"
Wayne: "Perfect timing. We are having a party tonight at my house in celebration of Birdman's new single (Y.U.Mad) and because I miss my Young Money family"
Nicki: "Of course I will be there, wouldn't miss it for the world. See you then Wayne MWAH!"
Wayne: "Okay bye Nic."
The first thoughts through Nicki's head was Drake. She hadn't seen or spoke to him in over 2 months and she knew tommorow night they were going to be re-united. She made Safaree sit and watch her try on outfit after outfit and wig after wig. She finally picked the perfect outfit.
Nicki wore her long blonde wig with a black blazer that was cut to show her clevage and cheetah bra, the blazer also cut on the bottom so it also showed her mid-drift. She matched with Chinese leggings that had a bunch of different desings within them, and cheeah printed heels. She had glitter eyeshadow with thick black eyeliner, and of course, her pink lipstick. She looked beautiful.
Safaree and Nicki ate dinner toghether and hopped in their white Range Rover, getting ready to begin the night. Once they arrived at Wayne's house, Nicki took a deep breathe and walked in. She smiled as big as possible when she saw her Young Money family all together again. She walked around and hugged everyone and had small conversastion, until she reached Drake. Once she walked to Drake, she could tell he had already been drinking, so it would be eaiser to hold conversastion with him now that he was drunk.
Nicki: "Hi Drake."
She leaned over and hugged him and he grasped her so tight, not wanting to let go.
Drake: "Well look at you, you look stunning."
He smiled at Nicki and kissed her hand, she smiled back and she walked off to say hi to everyone else. Nicki was playing hard to get, she knew that she wasn't going to make it easy for Drake to get back what he left. The night when on and Drake followed Nicki like a lost puppy. Of course, she paid no attention to him, because that would ruin her plan. Nicki thought it was funny to mess with Drake's emotions, she thought it was the payback he deserved. So she went to the bar and sat with a guy she had met earlier in the night, drinking and flirting with him. But it wasn't long until Drake couldn't take it anymore. The man slowly started to kiss Nicki on her neck, and that's when Drake made his move.
"I don't know who the fuck you think you are, but you better back the fuck up if you think you are getting ANYWHERE with this girl tonight." Drake screamed while pushing the man away.
"Drake what the fuck?" Nicki exclaimed. But she knew excatly what was going on.
"Ay don't touch me bro." The random man replied while pushing Drake even harder.
Drake threw the first punch, at this point he was an angry drunk and he wasn't going easy on this guy. Drake beat the living shit out of the guy until Wayne finally ran over and pulled them apart. The man was a friend of Wayne's, his name was Robert. Not only was Wayne embarrased that Drake fought his good friend, he was embarrased that Nicki was the one who started it out of revenge, he was dissapointed in both Nicki and Drake and asked them to leave his house until they could discuss things privately.
Drake left with his bestfriend and producer 40, and Nicki left with Safaree. Drake was screaming things at Nicki in the parking lot, but Nicki couldn't understand what he was saying, and she was too busy getting yelled at by SB on the way to the car.
"Nicki why would you do this? You KNEW that if you flirted with Robert, Drake would be upset and you did it anyways and look what you caused..I'm dissapointed. It's not always about getting people back, sometimes it's about letting go. You got yourself into some deep shit, I don't wanna talk to you right now so let's just leave it at that."
Safaree was annoyed with Nicki, and also mad because he got socked a couple times from trying to break up Drake and Robert fighting.
Nicki sat there quiet, not saying a word. Safaree always knew how to get to her, his words always went straight to Nicki's heart. Nicki was on her phone looking at tweets the whole way home. Drake tweeted.."I know you still think about the times we had." which brought Nicki to tears. She tweeted shortly after Drake saying "It's not always about getting people back, sometime's about letting go. Goodnight." That tweet drove Team Minaj CRAZY! They knew something was going on and they wanted to know what, Safree tweeted later in the night "Smh at these niggas."
Once they got home, Nicki ran straight in her room to take off her makeup and wig, and change into comfy clothes. She was upset because Safaree was ignoring her, and she hated it. She turned off her phone and went straight to bed.
Safaree was reading all the tweets on his timeline when he noticed something strange. A man tweeted to Nicki. And it wasn't just any man, it was the first man to ever break Nicki's heart. Safaree hated this man, and he hated seeing the tweet he sent to Nicki. It read: "I tried calling you, I think you're phone is off. We have some catching up to do Onika. Call when you see this."
Nicki was CRAZY in love with him. She loved him with all his heart, when they broke up, she was broken for months straight. Safaree hated him because of all the pain he caused. And he was NOT okay with him coming back into Nicki's life now.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Nicki's decision. (Part 2)
It had been a few days since Drake spoke to Nicki. She was still tied up and confused on how Drake could make her pick between Safaree or him. She couldn't sleep or think straight from all the thoughts in her mind. But she soon come to a decision. Nicki was going to stay by Safaree's side like he had always done for her. But she wasn't just going to watch Drake walk out, she was going to remind him what they had before she gave him her answer. She finally texted him letting him know it was time for them to discuss this.
Drake's phone lit up with a text from Nicki. "If you have no plans tonight, I'd like to discuss this. Come over" This was the message Drake had been waiting for. He quickly sent a message back. "Pefect. I will there at 10." Nicki sat down with Safaree and explained what she was going to do and say, hoping Drake would realize they both mean so much to her and hoping he would understand. Safaree on the other hand, he wanted nothing to do with this. He thought it was pathetic that Drake was forcing Nicki to choose between the two people she loved the most. So Safaree decided to go out with his boys tonight, that way he will be home super late and Nicki will be ready to talk to him by the time he is home. Once Safaree left the condo, Nicki finished getting ready. She kept her makeup on from earlier in the day, and threw on black booty-shorts with a white YMCMB tank top and her natural curls hanging slightly past her shoulders. She sat there with a drink in her hand and waiting for Drake. 10:00 hit the clock. *DING DONG* Nicki walked to the door.
When she opened it, she smiled at Drake. He had just came out of a meeting so he looked very handsome in his black suit with a silver tie.
"Hi Drake." she said softly with a cute chuckle to her voice.
"Hi Nic." he kissed her on the cheek, hoping she made the decision to stay with him.
Nicki handed him a cup as she sat herself on the couch. Drake took a sip and made a face like he was drinking posion.
"Could you have made this drink any stronger? I feel like I could get drunk off 2 sips." Drake started laughing with Nicki because he knew that she was a light-weight and she was probaly already drunk from the drink.
"Sorry, you know I barley drink, I'm not good with this stuff." Nicki replied while laughing.
"So let's talk." Drake said. Those words changed the mood in the room. Made both of them extremely nervous. But Nicki already had a plan in her head.
"All I know is...I love you, Drizzy." she chugged the rest of her drink and stumbled over to Drake and sat on his lap, kissing him on his neck and playing with his shirt.
"Finish that." Nicki said while feeling him up. He chugged the drink because her touch was getting him horny. Once he finished the drink, he threw the cup as he started to passionately kiss Nicki. She slowly removed his shirt as he removed hers. She wrapped her legs around him and he grabbed her and walked into the bedroom. He threw her down and immdiately removed her shorts, bra, and thong. Nicki was already letting out moans because she was sensitive to his touch. He felt her up and down as he kissed on her body making his way past her navel until his face was in between her thighs once again. She screamed once his tounge hit her, once Drake started, there was no stop. No matter how much she kicked, screamed, and cried, he wouldn't let go of her. Drake's pace became faster as he flicked his tounge in her, he contiued the pace until he heard Nicki scream. "IT'S RIGHT THERE DRAKE!" Then he knew he hit the spot. He immdiately started sucking and going faster as he felt Nicki's body tighten and clench. She leaned her head back and let out a loud moan while her eyes her pressed shut. "I'M..." she couldn't even finish her sentence due to the amazing orgasm she just experienced. Drake just smiled at Nicki, but she wasn't through with him. She started to rip off the rest of his suit while flipping him over in the covers. Then she stuck her head under and went down-town. But it didn't take a while for Drake, after a few minutes, he experinced the same feeling he gave to Nicki earlier. Once he did that, Nicki popped her head from under the sheets and laid her head on his chest while he searched his wallet for a condom. He slipped it on and quickly slipped inside of the Nicki, pounding her at the fastest pace possible. "I love you." Nicki said in between her moans. "I love you Nic, I really do." after minutes, Drake pulled out and layed next to Nicki. Rubbing her hair and kissing her cheek.
Nicki started speaking. "I love you more than I can ever explain. Without you in my life, I am nothing. I need you, I love you, I want you. Drake you're everything, you're my life." soft tears started to stream down Nicki's face as Drake wiped them. "I'm not going anywhere." Drake replied. This is where Nicki's plan set in, her next few words changed everything.
"Neither is Safaree."
The room suddenly got still and quiet. With not a single thing moving, no noises.
The way Drake would re-act right now would change EVERYTHING.
Drake got off the bed as he started to dress himself. Nicki could see the anger in his eyes.
"Drake don't do this.." Nicki said while starting to cry even harder. She threw on a robe and ran to the door before Drake could leave. Once Drake was changed, he saw Nicki sitting infront of the door crying. Drake sat next to Nicki and calmed her down.
"It's not the end. I just need sometime for myself, I deserve atleast that from you Nicki."
She moved her body away from the door and watched him lean over her and kiss her on the cheek as he walked himself out. He left her confused and in tears.
She laid in bed and waiting for Safaree to come home. At this point she had no make-up on, a baggy shirt, and a thong. Which was her normal bed-time outfit. About 45 minutes later, Safaree walked in the room and went straight into Nicki's room. She hugged him and cried in his arms while explaining everything to her bestfriend. Nicki knew this wasn't the last time she would see Drake, but it killed her to know she may be without him for a while.
Sorry for any typos, I am a fast typer! Thank you for reading my story and following along with the chapter. I hope you all enjoy it. I appreciate feedback VERY much so please comment on the blogs or write to the twitter page @TheFightForLove where you can get updates on all the new chapters. And spread the word :)
Drake's phone lit up with a text from Nicki. "If you have no plans tonight, I'd like to discuss this. Come over" This was the message Drake had been waiting for. He quickly sent a message back. "Pefect. I will there at 10." Nicki sat down with Safaree and explained what she was going to do and say, hoping Drake would realize they both mean so much to her and hoping he would understand. Safaree on the other hand, he wanted nothing to do with this. He thought it was pathetic that Drake was forcing Nicki to choose between the two people she loved the most. So Safaree decided to go out with his boys tonight, that way he will be home super late and Nicki will be ready to talk to him by the time he is home. Once Safaree left the condo, Nicki finished getting ready. She kept her makeup on from earlier in the day, and threw on black booty-shorts with a white YMCMB tank top and her natural curls hanging slightly past her shoulders. She sat there with a drink in her hand and waiting for Drake. 10:00 hit the clock. *DING DONG* Nicki walked to the door.
When she opened it, she smiled at Drake. He had just came out of a meeting so he looked very handsome in his black suit with a silver tie.
"Hi Drake." she said softly with a cute chuckle to her voice.
"Hi Nic." he kissed her on the cheek, hoping she made the decision to stay with him.
Nicki handed him a cup as she sat herself on the couch. Drake took a sip and made a face like he was drinking posion.
"Could you have made this drink any stronger? I feel like I could get drunk off 2 sips." Drake started laughing with Nicki because he knew that she was a light-weight and she was probaly already drunk from the drink.
"Sorry, you know I barley drink, I'm not good with this stuff." Nicki replied while laughing.
"So let's talk." Drake said. Those words changed the mood in the room. Made both of them extremely nervous. But Nicki already had a plan in her head.
"All I know is...I love you, Drizzy." she chugged the rest of her drink and stumbled over to Drake and sat on his lap, kissing him on his neck and playing with his shirt.
"Finish that." Nicki said while feeling him up. He chugged the drink because her touch was getting him horny. Once he finished the drink, he threw the cup as he started to passionately kiss Nicki. She slowly removed his shirt as he removed hers. She wrapped her legs around him and he grabbed her and walked into the bedroom. He threw her down and immdiately removed her shorts, bra, and thong. Nicki was already letting out moans because she was sensitive to his touch. He felt her up and down as he kissed on her body making his way past her navel until his face was in between her thighs once again. She screamed once his tounge hit her, once Drake started, there was no stop. No matter how much she kicked, screamed, and cried, he wouldn't let go of her. Drake's pace became faster as he flicked his tounge in her, he contiued the pace until he heard Nicki scream. "IT'S RIGHT THERE DRAKE!" Then he knew he hit the spot. He immdiately started sucking and going faster as he felt Nicki's body tighten and clench. She leaned her head back and let out a loud moan while her eyes her pressed shut. "I'M..." she couldn't even finish her sentence due to the amazing orgasm she just experienced. Drake just smiled at Nicki, but she wasn't through with him. She started to rip off the rest of his suit while flipping him over in the covers. Then she stuck her head under and went down-town. But it didn't take a while for Drake, after a few minutes, he experinced the same feeling he gave to Nicki earlier. Once he did that, Nicki popped her head from under the sheets and laid her head on his chest while he searched his wallet for a condom. He slipped it on and quickly slipped inside of the Nicki, pounding her at the fastest pace possible. "I love you." Nicki said in between her moans. "I love you Nic, I really do." after minutes, Drake pulled out and layed next to Nicki. Rubbing her hair and kissing her cheek.
Nicki started speaking. "I love you more than I can ever explain. Without you in my life, I am nothing. I need you, I love you, I want you. Drake you're everything, you're my life." soft tears started to stream down Nicki's face as Drake wiped them. "I'm not going anywhere." Drake replied. This is where Nicki's plan set in, her next few words changed everything.
"Neither is Safaree."
The room suddenly got still and quiet. With not a single thing moving, no noises.
The way Drake would re-act right now would change EVERYTHING.
Drake got off the bed as he started to dress himself. Nicki could see the anger in his eyes.
"Drake don't do this.." Nicki said while starting to cry even harder. She threw on a robe and ran to the door before Drake could leave. Once Drake was changed, he saw Nicki sitting infront of the door crying. Drake sat next to Nicki and calmed her down.
"It's not the end. I just need sometime for myself, I deserve atleast that from you Nicki."
She moved her body away from the door and watched him lean over her and kiss her on the cheek as he walked himself out. He left her confused and in tears.
She laid in bed and waiting for Safaree to come home. At this point she had no make-up on, a baggy shirt, and a thong. Which was her normal bed-time outfit. About 45 minutes later, Safaree walked in the room and went straight into Nicki's room. She hugged him and cried in his arms while explaining everything to her bestfriend. Nicki knew this wasn't the last time she would see Drake, but it killed her to know she may be without him for a while.
Sorry for any typos, I am a fast typer! Thank you for reading my story and following along with the chapter. I hope you all enjoy it. I appreciate feedback VERY much so please comment on the blogs or write to the twitter page @TheFightForLove where you can get updates on all the new chapters. And spread the word :)
Friday, September 2, 2011
Nicki's decision. (Part 1)
This chapter is shorter than most because I just wanted to catch you guys up before getting to the main drama of the story.
Nicki walked over to the door and opened it. She saw Drake standing there, he looked perfect in her eyes. He was freshly shaved with a new haircut, wearing jeans with a maroon long sleeve and Nicki's favorite necklace. She smiled at him but her smile faded away when she saw Shana standing right next to him. Shana was wearing tight black pantd with a flowly flower shirt and creme wedges, you could tell she dressed up for the occasion. Once they sat down, Nicki and SB walked over to the bar.
"Do you guys want any drinks?" Nicki asked.
"No thanks." Drake said. He looked over at Shana. She thought about it but then said no to the drinks as well. While Nicki and SB took another shot and made a mixed drink for themselves.
Once the drinks were made, Nicki and SB joined Shana and Drake in the living room as they took a seat.
"So Drake, you've been calling, texting, and e-mailing me for weeks. What is it you had to say so badly?" Nicki asked. That started the conversastion to a VERY important discussion.
Drake: "Nicki, I am sorry for what I did. I am not going to blame the drinking, I am not going to blame Shana. I am going to blame myself, I truly am sorry for what I did and the pain I caused, it wasn't intentionally."
Nicki tried not to look at Drake because she didn't wanna give in. She adjusted herself on the couch as she continued drinking and listening.
Shana: "Nicki.." (the room suddenly became still when Shana spoke. EVERYONE was interested in what she had to say.) "When I called Drake and told him I came into town, he warned me he was dating you. I didn't take it seriously because me and Drake have always had a past connection. Everytime I come to see him, it's like we are dating again. And it was weird visiting him and he wasn't treating me the same. And it hurt my feelings because I thought he didn't feel the same for me. So I made us drinks, got us drunk, and seduced him. I did it for my own satifaction. I did it because I missed Drake and I didn't wan to loose him. But I realized something..nothing changed. Drake always loved me, but now he loves me differently because he has found a new woman who stole his whole heart. I've thought about this, and I want Drake happy. And I decided I am going to loose contact with Drake, because seeing you guys happy will keep me happy. I'm sorry for anything and everything I have done. Goodbye Drake."
Shana grabbed her keys and walked out as Nicki, Drake, and SB sat there in complete shock. Drake sat there in tears as he watched one of the closest people in his life walk out. Nicki asked SB to go in another room so she could talk to Drake. Once SB walked out, Nicki sat on top of Drake's lap as leaned on her chest trying not to cry anymore.
"It's okay to cry Drake, it's okay." Nicki started crying herself, just because she missed being in Drake's arms..and because she was an emotional drunk. Drake layed with Nicki as she leaned in to kiss him. She was happy it got cleared up, and she was happy she had Drake back.
Nicki grabbed Drake's hand and walked him into her room, closing the door behind her. She jumped on Drake as she started kissing on his neck and removing his clothes. "Yesss" Drake moaned as he slipped his fingers into Nicki and rubbed against her listening to her moans, that's what he truly missed. He leaned back in to kiss Nicki before he stuck it in..but Nicki stopped him. "Drake I have something to tell you." Nicki said with a low tone.
"What's the matter?" Drake asked while kissing on her neck, he couldn't wait to be with Nicki tonight.
"I kissed Safaree." Nicki said looking down.
Drake pulled away as he started putting his clothes back on.
Drake: "So let me get this straight. You made me loose contact with Shana forever, and you kissed Safaree? No, if I have to loose Shana, you have to loose Safaree. Bullshit Nicki."
Nicki: "Drake it was just a kiss. I wasn't naked in bed with him like you were with Shana."
Drake: "NICKI, ME AND SHANA DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. WE KISSED AND UN-DRESSED EACHOTHER AND YOU WALKED IN. THAT'S ALL. IF YOUR MAKING ME LOOSE CONTACT WITH SHANA OVER THAT THEN I AM MAKING YOU LOSE CONTACT WITH SAFAREE."
Nicki was startled at Drake raising his voice and started to cry just from thinking of not being with Safaree.
Nicki: "He lives with me Drake. He's my bestfriend. I can't just get rid of him like that. Please."
Drake: "It's him or me."
Drake grabbed his keys and phone as he stormed out. Nicki sat in her room crying and thinking. It was impossible for her to choose between the two people she loved and cared for the most. Drake or Safaree?
Thank you for reading my story and following along! Stay tuned for all the twists and keep spreading the word. I would really appreciate everyone's feedback by commenting on the blogs or writing to the twitter page @TheFightForLove where you can get all the updates on chapters as well. Enjoy :)
Nicki walked over to the door and opened it. She saw Drake standing there, he looked perfect in her eyes. He was freshly shaved with a new haircut, wearing jeans with a maroon long sleeve and Nicki's favorite necklace. She smiled at him but her smile faded away when she saw Shana standing right next to him. Shana was wearing tight black pantd with a flowly flower shirt and creme wedges, you could tell she dressed up for the occasion. Once they sat down, Nicki and SB walked over to the bar.
"Do you guys want any drinks?" Nicki asked.
"No thanks." Drake said. He looked over at Shana. She thought about it but then said no to the drinks as well. While Nicki and SB took another shot and made a mixed drink for themselves.
Once the drinks were made, Nicki and SB joined Shana and Drake in the living room as they took a seat.
"So Drake, you've been calling, texting, and e-mailing me for weeks. What is it you had to say so badly?" Nicki asked. That started the conversastion to a VERY important discussion.
Drake: "Nicki, I am sorry for what I did. I am not going to blame the drinking, I am not going to blame Shana. I am going to blame myself, I truly am sorry for what I did and the pain I caused, it wasn't intentionally."
Nicki tried not to look at Drake because she didn't wanna give in. She adjusted herself on the couch as she continued drinking and listening.
Shana: "Nicki.." (the room suddenly became still when Shana spoke. EVERYONE was interested in what she had to say.) "When I called Drake and told him I came into town, he warned me he was dating you. I didn't take it seriously because me and Drake have always had a past connection. Everytime I come to see him, it's like we are dating again. And it was weird visiting him and he wasn't treating me the same. And it hurt my feelings because I thought he didn't feel the same for me. So I made us drinks, got us drunk, and seduced him. I did it for my own satifaction. I did it because I missed Drake and I didn't wan to loose him. But I realized something..nothing changed. Drake always loved me, but now he loves me differently because he has found a new woman who stole his whole heart. I've thought about this, and I want Drake happy. And I decided I am going to loose contact with Drake, because seeing you guys happy will keep me happy. I'm sorry for anything and everything I have done. Goodbye Drake."
Shana grabbed her keys and walked out as Nicki, Drake, and SB sat there in complete shock. Drake sat there in tears as he watched one of the closest people in his life walk out. Nicki asked SB to go in another room so she could talk to Drake. Once SB walked out, Nicki sat on top of Drake's lap as leaned on her chest trying not to cry anymore.
"It's okay to cry Drake, it's okay." Nicki started crying herself, just because she missed being in Drake's arms..and because she was an emotional drunk. Drake layed with Nicki as she leaned in to kiss him. She was happy it got cleared up, and she was happy she had Drake back.
Nicki grabbed Drake's hand and walked him into her room, closing the door behind her. She jumped on Drake as she started kissing on his neck and removing his clothes. "Yesss" Drake moaned as he slipped his fingers into Nicki and rubbed against her listening to her moans, that's what he truly missed. He leaned back in to kiss Nicki before he stuck it in..but Nicki stopped him. "Drake I have something to tell you." Nicki said with a low tone.
"What's the matter?" Drake asked while kissing on her neck, he couldn't wait to be with Nicki tonight.
"I kissed Safaree." Nicki said looking down.
Drake pulled away as he started putting his clothes back on.
Drake: "So let me get this straight. You made me loose contact with Shana forever, and you kissed Safaree? No, if I have to loose Shana, you have to loose Safaree. Bullshit Nicki."
Nicki: "Drake it was just a kiss. I wasn't naked in bed with him like you were with Shana."
Drake: "NICKI, ME AND SHANA DIDN'T DO ANYTHING. WE KISSED AND UN-DRESSED EACHOTHER AND YOU WALKED IN. THAT'S ALL. IF YOUR MAKING ME LOOSE CONTACT WITH SHANA OVER THAT THEN I AM MAKING YOU LOSE CONTACT WITH SAFAREE."
Nicki was startled at Drake raising his voice and started to cry just from thinking of not being with Safaree.
Nicki: "He lives with me Drake. He's my bestfriend. I can't just get rid of him like that. Please."
Drake: "It's him or me."
Drake grabbed his keys and phone as he stormed out. Nicki sat in her room crying and thinking. It was impossible for her to choose between the two people she loved and cared for the most. Drake or Safaree?
Thank you for reading my story and following along! Stay tuned for all the twists and keep spreading the word. I would really appreciate everyone's feedback by commenting on the blogs or writing to the twitter page @TheFightForLove where you can get all the updates on chapters as well. Enjoy :)
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