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Those words hit Drake like he was standing in front of a train. BOOM.
He heard her words loud and clear, he just didn't know how to react. Nicki released her hand from Safaree's as she stared into Drake's eyes trying to get a reaction of what he was thinking. Nothing, she got nothing. Safaree knew that Drake probaly wanted to speak to Nicki alone, he grabbed his phone and jacket to leave the condo, giving them alone time. He told Nic earlier in the night that if it got awkward he was going to leave, so she understood. She knew Safaree hate being put in those positions.
Safaree stood up and turned to Nicki.
Safaree: "BC-2 wanted me to come over to visit him while he's in town. So I'm gonna go to his place for a few hours. I'll call you a little later, bye Nic."
Nicki: "Ok have fun baby."
The room became awkward when she said the word "baby." She forgot that Drake was still sitting there listening to everything. Safaree started to head for the door, but he turned and spoke to Drake before walking out.
Safaree: "We fam, always."
Drake turned around and looked into Safaree's eyes.
Drake: "Always man, take care."
Safaree smiled at his reaction then winked at Nic as he walked out, locking the door behind him. Nicki and Drake sat at two seperate ends of the couch, completely silent. A flashback popped into Drake's head:
"And the winner for the best video collab is........NICKI MINAJ AND DRAKE, MOMENT 4 LIFE."
The crowd went wild when Nicki and Drake stood up and hugged eachother. She hugged SB and Lil Wayne then made her way to the stage with Drake behind her. Once she grabbed the award, Nicki spoke first.
"Wow...I never know what to say at these things, because it still hasn't hit me how honored and blessed I am. I love my team, I love my family, I love my barbz, I love everyone who told me I can, and I love everyone who has told me I can't..because every word has gotten me where I am. Thank you to EVERYONE for EVERYTHING. I am honored..I can't even begin with names because I would be here all night *chuckles* This is my moment 4 life. MWAH." The crowd went wild. Drake grabbed Nicki's hand which made them scream even louder. He went to speak after Nicki.
"I am blessed I got to make this song with such a beautiful person. And the fact that we won a VMA for it makes me even more blessed. I just want to thank my team, my family, and every single one of my AMAZING supporters. Love you all!! YMCMB. Oh and Nicki..." he turned straight at her and looked her in the eyes on stage. Everyone was silent waiting for what was going it to happen. "Tonight, it's happening sooner than later." Nicki's eyes grew large with shock and excitment and he reached in and kissed her on stage. He picked her up as they waved to everyone and walked on stage. The crowd was going WILD. The host couldn't even speak or calm them down. SB's smile was HUGE, he was the only one that really knew what was going on and he was more than happy. Once they sat back in their seats, Nicki was too shy to speak or even look up because she knew everyone was staring. Drake leaned over and whispered "I love you." in her ear.
The memory replayed in Drake's mind as tears streamed down his face. Nicki still sat there silently waiting for something to say or waiting for Drake to speak. Drake stood up and began heading for this door. This made Nicki's heart race. She didn't want things to end like this.
"Wait." she said. Finally breaking the silence. Drake turned around, waiting for Nicki to continue.
"Can you just sit....please?" Nicki's voice was cracking, and Drake knew that meant she was going to cry. He sat back on the couch so Nicki wouldn't cry.
"Is it becuse we lost our baby?" he asked. Nicki looked up at him confused and in shock. "What?" she replied. "Are you moving on from me...because we lost our baby?" Drake wiped his tears and watched Nicki as she walked over to the couch she was sitting on and moved next to him. She gently finished wiping the tears from his face. "Of course not Drake." she looked down and began wiping her own tears. When she thought about to, she really had NO reason who she gave up on Drake, she doesn't even know if she's really over him...she just knew that Safaree was always there with her and that's who made her happy.
"What is it? What did I do then?" Drake asked. Nicki didn't know what to reply because Drake did nothing wrong. The fact that he asked that question changed everything, it confused her. She was so sure that SB was the one for her..but now her mind was clouded with guilt and confusion. She broke down.
"I don't know Drake. I don't know."
Drake couldn't sit there any longer and listen to Nicki give him mixed signs. He grabbed his things and began walking out, Nicki chased behind him.
"Drake I really don't know, just stop please" she was crying and pulling his arm. He opened the door and turned to her as she slammed into his chest crying.
"I'm not mad Nicki. If you don't remeber, I was the one who fucked up this relationship in the first place, I understand. I just think we are both confused right now, especially you. I know what I want, and it's to be with you. But you on the other hand..You don't know what you want. And I don't want to pressure you into making a decision right now. I can see it in your eyes Nic, your confused. I just want you to think about it, call me when you have your mind is clear and we can talk it through. I love you, okay?" he kissed Nicki on the forehead and walked to his car. Nicki stook at the front door watching him leave. She gave him a wave as he drove off. She closed the door and walked into the condo, she picked up her phone and texted Safaree. "Come home soon please." She just wanted to clear her mind and she didn't want to be alone. "Already on my way, be there in 10." he replied. Little did she know, he had been thinking about the situation the whole time, Safaree wasn't okay with the way things were going, he thought about it, and made a tough decision.
He walked in the condo to see Nicki on her phone still crying. This made his heart hurt, but he still made a decision that he was going to follow through with.
"Nic I need to talk to you." He said. They both knew this didn't sound good....
Yes I did, yes I did, I left you guys hanging again, mwahaha! I am trying to see if the story will be continue to be Onikafaree or Dricki by all the comments I get, but it's an equal amount for both so I can't decide!! Next chapter will be released when I have atleast 20 comments with what YOU would like to see. You can give feedback by commenting the blogs or writing to my twitter page (@deenaminaj). Thanks for reading, until next time :)
Monday, November 21, 2011
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Truth be told: Part 1
Hey readers! I know it's been a while since I've posted, so I did the best I could with this one. Thank you all who have been reading and following along with my story. Hope you guys enjoy this one :)
Things were going good for Nicki and Safaree. Nobody really knew they were a "thing" except their close friends. Drake was still clueless to this, and Nicki was still a bit afraid to let him know. Therapy had really been helping Nicki get back on her feet, she started working in the studio again, and really feeling back to normal. The thoughts of telling Drake about Safaree ran through her mind daily. Drake was finally getting time off from his busy schedule, which meant he would be around Nicki more than usual so Nicki knew she had to tell Drake what was going on. As these thoughts ran through her mind, she noticed her phone started ringing. It was Drake. She knew it was Drake because she had a special ringtone for him from when they were dating, that she never changed. "This is my moment, I've waited all my, life I can telll it's time..." as her phone went off, she looked at SB sitting next to her on the couch, snatched the phone, and answered it.
Nicki: "Hello?"
Drake: "Hi Nic!!"
She loved how excited he always sounded when he wanted to talk to her.
Nicki: *giggling* "Hi Drizzy Baby"
Drake: "I'm home, I finally have time off! I want to see you as soon as possible, when works for you? And how is everything? How are you feeling?"
Nicki: "I'm doing alot better Drake, I'm glad I've been going to thearpy because it's helped. And I'm glad you got a thearapist because I can tell it's been helping you too. But I want you to come over at around 7:30 tonight because I wanna discuss some things with you, is that good with you?"
Drake: "Yeah of course baby, I'll see you then Nic."
Nicki: "Okay bye hunn!"
Nicki hung up the phone but couldn't help to stare at the floor for a few minutes. The fact Drake called her baby just rushed all the old memories back into her head. She stared at the floor remebering all the goods, bads, ups, and downs they had together until SB shook her shoulders to get her out of her daze.
"What was that all about?" SB asked. But before Nicki could respond, she stared into SB's eyes, remebering that he is the man who is there, he is the man she loves. This brought tears of joy to her eyes but confusion into SB's face. "Helllo? The fuck is going on Nic?" SB asked.
"Nothing, sorry I was in a daze." Nic responded while shaking her head and snapping in her own face. This made SB laugh. "Well obviously, but why is Drake coming over? What do you gotta discuss?" he replied.
"I'm gonna tell him about us." The room fell silent because they both knew this wasn't going to be good.
"Well I don't be there for that." SB replied. Nicki looked at him like he was crazy. "Don't even play." Nicki replied. SB just took a deep dramatic breathe and crossed his arms. Nicki cuddled up with him as she started speaking.
I never thought I was going to ever be the same again Safaree."
Once she spoke those words, SB knew she was referring to the mis-carriage and he knew it had been on her mind.
"I know Nic." SB replied while rubbing the side of her arm and kissing her forehead.
"Maybe God just doesn't want me to have kids."
"Nic what are you talking about?" SB knew Nicki always over-thinks situations.
"It's not like it's the first time I've let go of a child..."
This made the room silent. SB forgot all about the abortion Nicki had when she was a teenager. She continued to speak as her phone started cracking which is what happens before she cries.
"To concieve you and leave you, the concept alone seems evil. I'm trapped in my own concious."
The lyric played through both of their heads. Nicki sat up on the couch now angry.
"How the FUCK would anyone know if I was ready to take on a child? How the FUCK did they convince me to take away my precious baby? How the FUCK could I have been so stupid?"
Safaree watched as Nicki beat herself up with questions. He knew that anything he said wouldn't affect Nicki right now, she layed her head in her hands and fell into SB's chest as tears streamed down her face.
"This....this is my karma. I took my baby away from the world, so God took my baby away from me. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."
SB grabbed Nicki's chin and lifted up her face so he was looking her into the eyes.
"I love you Onika. I do. You're a good person. Please stop beating yourself up over things that aren't in your control."
He wiped Nicki's tears and watched the words come out of her mouth "I love you babe."
Both Nicki & SB went their seperate ways to shower and get ready for Drake to come.
Few hours later:
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
Nicki took a deep breathe and looked at Safaree one more time before opening the door.
Drake fell straight into Nicki's arms, picking her up and hugging her as tight as possible.
"Ahhhhh" Nicki screamed with laughter. She loved Drake so much, but she didn't love him the way she loved Safaree. "Hi babygiiiiiirllll!" Drake screamed while putting her down. He had the biggest smile on her face after seeing her, this made Safaree feel bad because Drake had no idea what was going on.
"Sup SB man, how ya been?"
"Good man, glad to see you doing so good."
They dapped eachother as they all sat on the couch and had small talk and caught up with eachother.
An hour passed and Nicki still hadn't told Drake the news but Drake had no problem bringing it up.
"So Nic, what was it you had to discuss wtith me? You always wait until the very last minute when you have something important to say." Nicki giggled as she looked at the floor, "he knows me too well" she thought to herself.
She turned to Drake but scooted closer to Safaree.
"Well...Drake..." she grabbed Safaree's hand as she interwined their fingers.
"I'm in love with Safaree Samuels, I couldn't be more happy with this man."
The room fell silent.....
I bet you're all wondering what's gonna happen next, am I right? ;) Well that's the beauty of imagination! Mwahaha, anyways, thank you all again for reading and staying tuned into my story. I will released the Part 2 to this story as soon as I have ATLEAST 15 comments/feedback on this story and I know I could get there because I have 51 people following my blog. Comment on the blog or write to my twitter page (@DeenaMinaj) and let me know what you thought and what you would like to see next. Until next chapter my friends, mwah xo!
Things were going good for Nicki and Safaree. Nobody really knew they were a "thing" except their close friends. Drake was still clueless to this, and Nicki was still a bit afraid to let him know. Therapy had really been helping Nicki get back on her feet, she started working in the studio again, and really feeling back to normal. The thoughts of telling Drake about Safaree ran through her mind daily. Drake was finally getting time off from his busy schedule, which meant he would be around Nicki more than usual so Nicki knew she had to tell Drake what was going on. As these thoughts ran through her mind, she noticed her phone started ringing. It was Drake. She knew it was Drake because she had a special ringtone for him from when they were dating, that she never changed. "This is my moment, I've waited all my, life I can telll it's time..." as her phone went off, she looked at SB sitting next to her on the couch, snatched the phone, and answered it.
Nicki: "Hello?"
Drake: "Hi Nic!!"
She loved how excited he always sounded when he wanted to talk to her.
Nicki: *giggling* "Hi Drizzy Baby"
Drake: "I'm home, I finally have time off! I want to see you as soon as possible, when works for you? And how is everything? How are you feeling?"
Nicki: "I'm doing alot better Drake, I'm glad I've been going to thearpy because it's helped. And I'm glad you got a thearapist because I can tell it's been helping you too. But I want you to come over at around 7:30 tonight because I wanna discuss some things with you, is that good with you?"
Drake: "Yeah of course baby, I'll see you then Nic."
Nicki: "Okay bye hunn!"
Nicki hung up the phone but couldn't help to stare at the floor for a few minutes. The fact Drake called her baby just rushed all the old memories back into her head. She stared at the floor remebering all the goods, bads, ups, and downs they had together until SB shook her shoulders to get her out of her daze.
"What was that all about?" SB asked. But before Nicki could respond, she stared into SB's eyes, remebering that he is the man who is there, he is the man she loves. This brought tears of joy to her eyes but confusion into SB's face. "Helllo? The fuck is going on Nic?" SB asked.
"Nothing, sorry I was in a daze." Nic responded while shaking her head and snapping in her own face. This made SB laugh. "Well obviously, but why is Drake coming over? What do you gotta discuss?" he replied.
"I'm gonna tell him about us." The room fell silent because they both knew this wasn't going to be good.
"Well I don't be there for that." SB replied. Nicki looked at him like he was crazy. "Don't even play." Nicki replied. SB just took a deep dramatic breathe and crossed his arms. Nicki cuddled up with him as she started speaking.
I never thought I was going to ever be the same again Safaree."
Once she spoke those words, SB knew she was referring to the mis-carriage and he knew it had been on her mind.
"I know Nic." SB replied while rubbing the side of her arm and kissing her forehead.
"Maybe God just doesn't want me to have kids."
"Nic what are you talking about?" SB knew Nicki always over-thinks situations.
"It's not like it's the first time I've let go of a child..."
This made the room silent. SB forgot all about the abortion Nicki had when she was a teenager. She continued to speak as her phone started cracking which is what happens before she cries.
"To concieve you and leave you, the concept alone seems evil. I'm trapped in my own concious."
The lyric played through both of their heads. Nicki sat up on the couch now angry.
"How the FUCK would anyone know if I was ready to take on a child? How the FUCK did they convince me to take away my precious baby? How the FUCK could I have been so stupid?"
Safaree watched as Nicki beat herself up with questions. He knew that anything he said wouldn't affect Nicki right now, she layed her head in her hands and fell into SB's chest as tears streamed down her face.
"This....this is my karma. I took my baby away from the world, so God took my baby away from me. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."
SB grabbed Nicki's chin and lifted up her face so he was looking her into the eyes.
"I love you Onika. I do. You're a good person. Please stop beating yourself up over things that aren't in your control."
He wiped Nicki's tears and watched the words come out of her mouth "I love you babe."
Both Nicki & SB went their seperate ways to shower and get ready for Drake to come.
Few hours later:
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
Nicki took a deep breathe and looked at Safaree one more time before opening the door.
Drake fell straight into Nicki's arms, picking her up and hugging her as tight as possible.
"Ahhhhh" Nicki screamed with laughter. She loved Drake so much, but she didn't love him the way she loved Safaree. "Hi babygiiiiiirllll!" Drake screamed while putting her down. He had the biggest smile on her face after seeing her, this made Safaree feel bad because Drake had no idea what was going on.
"Sup SB man, how ya been?"
"Good man, glad to see you doing so good."
They dapped eachother as they all sat on the couch and had small talk and caught up with eachother.
An hour passed and Nicki still hadn't told Drake the news but Drake had no problem bringing it up.
"So Nic, what was it you had to discuss wtith me? You always wait until the very last minute when you have something important to say." Nicki giggled as she looked at the floor, "he knows me too well" she thought to herself.
She turned to Drake but scooted closer to Safaree.
"Well...Drake..." she grabbed Safaree's hand as she interwined their fingers.
"I'm in love with Safaree Samuels, I couldn't be more happy with this man."
The room fell silent.....
I bet you're all wondering what's gonna happen next, am I right? ;) Well that's the beauty of imagination! Mwahaha, anyways, thank you all again for reading and staying tuned into my story. I will released the Part 2 to this story as soon as I have ATLEAST 15 comments/feedback on this story and I know I could get there because I have 51 people following my blog. Comment on the blog or write to my twitter page (@DeenaMinaj) and let me know what you thought and what you would like to see next. Until next chapter my friends, mwah xo!
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