Alone...and happy.

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"Yes SB?" Nicki asked. Tears streamed down her face because she could tell in his voice that this wasn't going to be good.
"I...I...I don't know. I'm not too sure you know who you love. I'm not going to sit here and wait while you get to choose between two guys. Either way, you win and one of us losses. I don't want to lose and I'm not taking the risk."
Nicki stared at SB as he walked upstairs and began packing his things. She followed him and rested herself on the frame of his door while watching him pack. Still speechless. She thought to herself..."He's right. Either way I win. But I don't deserve to break one guys heart because they both mean the world to me." she made a decision. She finally spoke to Safaree.
"Your right."
He looked up at her waiting for her to continue. So she did.
"It's not fair to either you or Drake. You both mean to much to me to hurt either one of you. I want nothing more than a friendship from both of you from here...just please don't leave me Safaree." she wiped her tears but felt confident in her decision as keeping them both as friends. She couldn't do this any longer, she couldn't keep hurting them. She knew it would take time to look at both of them as friends again, but it would be worth it.
Safaree walked over to her as he wiped the tears from her face. He pulled her into his chest and he held onto her...as a bestfriend.
Nicki grabbed her phone as she dialed Drake's number, still in Safaree's arms holding back tears.
"Hello?" his voice sounded nervous.
"I'm coming over"
He was confused because it had only been an hour since he walked out of her house.
"Ok" was all Drake could reply. She hung up the phone and looked at SB with a soft smile while grabbing her purse. "I'm proud of you Nic." he said while watching her walk out. She turned before closing the door behind her "I love you."
Safaree knew this was for the best. It hurt his heart but in due time he knew things would go back to normal, they always did. He felt as if this were a sign from god that they need to remain bestfriends...and that was his plan from now on.
On the other hand, Nicki pulled up to Drake's house. She sent a text saying "Come outside" she didn't bother coming to the door because she didn't want this to be long. She was saying goodbye to Drake as a lover. It hurt her heart but needed to be done. He walked Drake walk down the driveway while she stood up leaned against her car, already fighting back the tears. Drake leaned on the car next to her waiting for her to speak.
"I...." her voice was cracking from her crying. He waited for her to finish.
"You and Safaree mean too much for me to risk a relationship with either one of you..." she took a deep breathe and continued "...I'm saying goodbye to you as a lover, I'm not risking this anymore. I'd rather be alone than hurt the two men that mean the most to me." Drake blankly stared at her, he understood her decision and she could see that in his eyes. "Are you gonna speak Drake?" Nicki asked.
"Always here Nic. I'm proud of you." she looked up at him with a weird look on her face. "What?" he asked.
"Nothing...it's just...Safaree said the same thing to me when I told him that..."
"Because we both care for you Onika. We aren't going anywhere. This is going to take some adjusting but I'm willing to do whatever it takes, as long as your in my life. I love you"
Nicki's heart felt warm, this is exactly what should have happened months ago, it's happening now and all she can do is accept it.
"I love you."
She hugged drake as he kissed her forehead. Drake was leaving within the next two weeks to go on tour for Take Care so she knew she wouldn't be seeing him for months straight. They made this hug a long and powerful one. Once they released, Nicki said nothing more. She got in we car and drove away while Drake watched from his driveway. Nicki started to think to herself: it's funny, at the begging off all of this, I was sad and alone. Months later, I'm walking away from love..happy and alone. I don't need to find love, it will find me.
She pulled up to her house and opened the door to see Safaree asleep on the couch. She walked in his room to see all his stuff clothes back in this closet. She smiled. Nicki walked to her room and layed in her big bed. Yes she was alone in this giant bed, but that's because she deserves all the extra room to toss around and stretch her legs. Because..she IS Nicki Minaj. She giggled to herself from the thought as she held her pillow and drifted to sleep.

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ANYWAYS, I'm ending the story here. It's been a long fun experience but there isn't much more to say! I may add ONE LAST CHAPTER about how everything is going for Nicki, Safaree, and Drake months later..I will do this depending on the amount of feedback I get on this chapter. ATLEAST 20 comments on here people! You can write to my twitter as well: @DeenaMinaj
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Truth be told: Part 2

This chapter begins excatly where the chapter before ended. Excuse all typos & enjoy!

Those words hit Drake like he was standing in front of a train. BOOM.
He heard her words loud and clear, he just didn't know how to react. Nicki released her hand from Safaree's as she stared into Drake's eyes trying to get a reaction of what he was thinking. Nothing, she got nothing. Safaree knew that Drake probaly wanted to speak to Nicki alone, he grabbed his phone and jacket to leave the condo, giving them alone time. He told Nic earlier in the night that if it got awkward he was going to leave, so she understood. She knew Safaree hate being put in those positions.
Safaree stood up and turned to Nicki.
Safaree: "BC-2 wanted me to come over to visit him while he's in town. So I'm gonna go to his place for a few hours. I'll call you a little later, bye Nic."
Nicki: "Ok have fun baby."
The room became awkward when she said the word "baby." She forgot that Drake was still sitting there listening to everything. Safaree started to head for the door, but he turned and spoke to Drake before walking out.
Safaree: "We fam, always."
Drake turned around and looked into Safaree's eyes.
Drake: "Always man, take care."
Safaree smiled at his reaction then winked at Nic as he walked out, locking the door behind him. Nicki and Drake sat at two seperate ends of the couch, completely silent. A flashback popped into Drake's head:

"And the winner for the best video collab is........NICKI MINAJ AND DRAKE, MOMENT 4 LIFE."
The crowd went wild when Nicki and Drake stood up and hugged eachother. She hugged SB and Lil Wayne then made her way to the stage with Drake behind her. Once she grabbed the award, Nicki spoke first.
"Wow...I never know what to say at these things, because it still hasn't hit me how honored and blessed I am. I love my team, I love my family, I love my barbz, I love everyone who told me I can, and I love everyone who has told me I can't..because every word has gotten me where I am. Thank you to EVERYONE for EVERYTHING. I am honored..I can't even begin with names because I would be here all night *chuckles* This is my moment 4 life. MWAH." The crowd went wild. Drake grabbed Nicki's hand which made them scream even louder. He went to speak after Nicki.
"I am blessed I got to make this song with such a beautiful person. And the fact that we won a VMA for it makes me even more blessed. I just want to thank my team, my family, and every single one of my AMAZING supporters. Love you all!! YMCMB. Oh and Nicki..." he turned straight at her and looked her in the eyes on stage. Everyone was silent waiting for what was going it to happen. "Tonight, it's happening sooner than later." Nicki's eyes grew large with shock and excitment and he reached in and kissed her on stage. He picked her up as they waved to everyone and walked on stage. The crowd was going WILD. The host couldn't even speak or calm them down. SB's smile was HUGE, he was the only one that really knew what was going on and he was more than happy. Once they sat back in their seats, Nicki was too shy to speak or even look up because she knew everyone was staring. Drake leaned over and whispered "I love you." in her ear.

The memory replayed in Drake's mind as tears streamed down his face. Nicki still sat there silently waiting for something to say or waiting for Drake to speak. Drake stood up and began heading for this door. This made Nicki's heart race. She didn't want things to end like this.
"Wait." she said. Finally breaking the silence. Drake turned around, waiting for Nicki to continue.
"Can you just sit....please?" Nicki's voice was cracking, and Drake knew that meant she was going to cry. He sat back on the couch so Nicki wouldn't cry.
"Is it becuse we lost our baby?" he asked. Nicki looked up at him confused and in shock. "What?" she replied. "Are you moving on from me...because we lost our baby?" Drake wiped his tears and watched Nicki as she walked over to the couch she was sitting on and moved next to him. She gently finished wiping the tears from his face. "Of course not Drake." she looked down and began wiping her own tears. When she thought about to, she really had NO reason who she gave up on Drake, she doesn't even know if she's really over him...she just knew that Safaree was always there with her and that's who made her happy.
"What is it? What did I do then?" Drake asked. Nicki didn't know what to reply because Drake did nothing wrong. The fact that he asked that question changed everything, it confused her. She was so sure that SB was the one for her..but now her mind was clouded with guilt and confusion. She broke down.
"I don't know Drake. I don't know."
Drake couldn't sit there any longer and listen to Nicki give him mixed signs. He grabbed his things and began walking out, Nicki chased behind him.
"Drake I really don't know, just stop please" she was crying and pulling his arm. He opened the door and turned to her as she slammed into his chest crying.
"I'm not mad Nicki. If you don't remeber, I was the one who fucked up this relationship in the first place, I understand. I just think we are both confused right now, especially you. I know what I want, and it's to be with you. But you on the other hand..You don't know what you want. And I don't want to pressure you into making a decision right now. I can see it in your eyes Nic, your confused. I just want you to think about it, call me when you have your mind is clear and we can talk it through. I love you, okay?" he kissed Nicki on the forehead and walked to his car. Nicki stook at the front door watching him leave. She gave him a wave as he drove off. She closed the door and walked into the condo, she picked up her phone and texted Safaree. "Come home soon please." She just wanted to clear her mind and she didn't want to be alone. "Already on my way, be there in 10." he replied. Little did she know, he had been thinking about the situation the whole time, Safaree wasn't okay with the way things were going, he thought about it, and made a tough decision.
He walked in the condo to see Nicki on her phone still crying. This made his heart hurt, but he still made a decision that he was going to follow through with.
"Nic I need to talk to you." He said. They both knew this didn't sound good....

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Truth be told: Part 1

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Things were going good for Nicki and Safaree. Nobody really knew they were a "thing" except their close friends. Drake was still clueless to this, and Nicki was still a bit afraid to let him know. Therapy had really been helping Nicki get back on her feet, she started working in the studio again, and really feeling back to normal. The thoughts of telling Drake about Safaree ran through her mind daily. Drake was finally getting time off from his busy schedule, which meant he would be around Nicki more than usual so Nicki knew she had to tell Drake what was going on. As these thoughts ran through her mind, she noticed her phone started ringing. It was Drake. She knew it was Drake because she had a special ringtone for him from when they were dating, that she never changed. "This is my moment, I've waited all my, life I can telll it's time..." as her phone went off, she looked at SB sitting next to her on the couch, snatched the phone, and answered it.
Nicki: "Hello?"
Drake: "Hi Nic!!"
She loved how excited he always sounded when he wanted to talk to her.
Nicki: *giggling* "Hi Drizzy Baby"
Drake: "I'm home, I finally have time off! I want to see you as soon as possible, when works for you? And how is everything? How are you feeling?"
Nicki: "I'm doing alot better Drake, I'm glad I've been going to thearpy because it's helped. And I'm glad you got a thearapist because I can tell it's been helping you too. But I want you to come over at around 7:30 tonight because I wanna discuss some things with you, is that good with you?"
Drake: "Yeah of course baby, I'll see you then Nic."
Nicki: "Okay bye hunn!"
Nicki hung up the phone but couldn't help to stare at the floor for a few minutes. The fact Drake called her baby just rushed all the old memories back into her head. She stared at the floor remebering all the goods, bads, ups, and downs they had together until SB shook her shoulders to get her out of her daze.
"What was that all about?" SB asked. But before Nicki could respond, she stared into SB's eyes, remebering that he is the man who is there, he is the man she loves. This brought tears of joy to her eyes but confusion into SB's face. "Helllo? The fuck is going on Nic?" SB asked.
"Nothing, sorry I was in a daze." Nic responded while shaking her head and snapping in her own face. This made SB laugh. "Well obviously, but why is Drake coming over? What do you gotta discuss?" he replied.
"I'm gonna tell him about us." The room fell silent because they both knew this wasn't going to be good.
"Well I don't be there for that." SB replied. Nicki looked at him like he was crazy. "Don't even play." Nicki replied. SB just took a deep dramatic breathe and crossed his arms. Nicki cuddled up with him as she started speaking.
I never thought I was going to ever be the same again Safaree."
Once she spoke those words, SB knew she was referring to the mis-carriage and he knew it had been on her mind.
"I know Nic." SB replied while rubbing the side of her arm and kissing her forehead.
"Maybe God just doesn't want me to have kids."
"Nic what are you talking about?" SB knew Nicki always over-thinks situations.
"It's not like it's the first time I've let go of a child..."
This made the room silent. SB forgot all about the abortion Nicki had when she was a teenager. She continued to speak as her phone started cracking which is what happens before she cries.
"To concieve you and leave you, the concept alone seems evil. I'm trapped in my own concious."
The lyric played through both of their heads. Nicki sat up on the couch now angry.
"How the FUCK would anyone know if I was ready to take on a child? How the FUCK did they convince me to take away my precious baby? How the FUCK could I have been so stupid?"
Safaree watched as Nicki beat herself up with questions. He knew that anything he said wouldn't affect Nicki right now, she layed her head in her hands and fell into SB's chest as tears streamed down her face.
"This....this is my karma. I took my baby away from the world, so God took my baby away from me. I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."
SB grabbed Nicki's chin and lifted up her face so he was looking her into the eyes.
"I love you Onika. I do. You're a good person. Please stop beating yourself up over things that aren't in your control."
He wiped Nicki's tears and watched the words come out of her mouth "I love you babe."
Both Nicki & SB went their seperate ways to shower and get ready for Drake to come.

Few hours later:
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
Nicki took a deep breathe and looked at Safaree one more time before opening the door.
Drake fell straight into Nicki's arms, picking her up and hugging her as tight as possible.
"Ahhhhh" Nicki screamed with laughter. She loved Drake so much, but she didn't love him the way she loved Safaree. "Hi babygiiiiiirllll!" Drake screamed while putting her down. He had the biggest smile on her face after seeing her, this made Safaree feel bad because Drake had no idea what was going on.
"Sup SB man, how ya been?"
"Good man, glad to see you doing so good."
They dapped eachother as they all sat on the couch and had small talk and caught up with eachother.
An hour passed and Nicki still hadn't told Drake the news but Drake had no problem bringing it up.
"So Nic, what was it you had to discuss wtith me? You always wait until the very last minute when you have something important to say." Nicki giggled as she looked at the floor, "he knows me too well" she thought to herself.
She turned to Drake but scooted closer to Safaree.
"Well...Drake..." she grabbed Safaree's hand as she interwined their fingers.
"I'm in love with Safaree Samuels, I couldn't be more happy with this man."
The room fell silent.....

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IN love.

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The feelings have been different between Safaree and Nicki since he admitted to being in love with her in their last therapy session. Thing we're just different..not in a good or bad way, just different. Ever since Safaree said he was in love with Nicki, Nicki has been looking at everything in a new perspective. Everything he did, she knew he did it because he was in love with her. Every therapy session, every meal he cooked, every story he told, every venting session they had, every word he spoke, he did it because he loved her. And the more he did it, the more Nicki started to fall in love back. It wasn't long until Nicki had to tell Safaree how she felt, she made sure it was just perfect when she told him.
It was a late night when Safaree came home after going out with his boys, Nicki had Lauren and Candi over for a girls night, but she made sure they were long gone by the time Safaree got home. He walked in with Nicki sitting on the couch. She had 2 glasses of champange and chocolate covered strawberries on the table with one of SB's shirts on and booty shorts, letting her natural curls fall to her shoulders. Once SB walked in, he immdiately threw a smile on his face and he sat next to Nicki.
"What's going on?" He asked.
She made herself comfortable in his arms and he sipped on the champange and held her with his other arm. They ate chocolate strawberries together until Nicki spoke on what the speical occasion was.
She bit her lip and rubbed his chest as she looked up at him, making sure this is the man she loved and the man she wanted to be with, she began spilling her heart out.
"You've been with me since day one..and I want you to be with me until my last day. Safaree Samuels my love for you has only grown. We had a beautful friendship that blossomed into true love. I love you, I'm in love with you. In your arms in where I'd like to stay if that's okay with you..." she paused her speech to look up at Safaree and read his reaction. Tears of joy were falling down his face, with her soft fingers wiping them away. He smiled as he reached himself down to kiss her, she deepened the kiss and she held on to him. He picked her up, not releasing the kiss, and walked her into her bedroom, laying her down as layed over her kissing on her neck and ear. She removed his shirt..he removed hers. The process continued until they were both completely naked on top of eachother. Safaree started moving down Nicki's body with his lips. Kissing every spot he possibly could. Once he reached her thighs, Nicki strapped her legs around his back, waiting for the pleasure she was going to recieve from the love of her life. Once his tounge hit her, she couldn't help to let out a loud moan. This made Safaree giggle because he knew this was what she was waiting for..and he had no doubt he wasn't going to please her. He rotated his tounge all around her listening to her moan and scream his name until he reached her spot. He moved his tougne in a faster circular motion as he centered in on her spot, he nibbled and sucked and licked until Nicki's body couldn't hold on anymore. By the way her moans changed and became faster, that's when Safaree knew she was ready. She screamed out that she loved him before she came completely wet. Safaree cleaned up her mess as he reached in his jean pocket for a condom. Nicki's body was weak, but she wasn't giving up until she gave him the pleasure he deserved. Safaree slipped on the condom and thrusted hiself into her, listening to her scream and enjoying her tightness around him. He immdiately began at a fast pace and slammed into Nicki while he watched her scream and toss around all over the bed. Not pulling out, Nicki switched him on his back and she got on top. It was her turn to give him what he wanted. He slowly pushed herself in and out of him, teasing Safaree and enjoying his moans. Once she knew he couldn't take the teasing anymore, she flipped her body around and began riding him as fast as she could. This drove Safaree crazy and after a few short minutes he couldn't help but burst inside of her. She jumped off and kissed all of Safaree's sweet spots while she watched him fall asleep, he rubbed all over her body as they reminded eachother they love eachother..they are IN love with eachother..but Nicki couldn't help but think what would happen with her relationship with Drake if she commited to Safaree. These thoughts made her fall right to sleep, hoping her dreams would give her some answers to the questions that ran through her mind.

Session 4.

The past two thearpy sessions had been excatly like the first one. Nothing. Nicki wasn't saying a word, the only thing that filled the room were her sobs. But according to the thearpist, this was normal. The thearapist (Dr. Brielle Williams) warned Safaree that it will take a couple of sessions until Nicki is comfortable with opening up, and that's excatly how it was. Nicki was finally getting comfortable with her new thearapist and she knew that she was ready to trust her.
Nicki woke up on a beautiful Tuesday morning, ready for her weekly appointment with Dr. Williams. This was her fourth appointment and she was finally feeling comfortable and trusting with her thearapist. Once they got to her office, Safaree walked Nicki into Dr. Williams office then usually waited outside or got food until she called him. But this time was different. Safaree kissed Nicki's forehead and began to walk out, then she grabbed his arm and pulled him back. "Stay with me." she said. He looked at her then looked over at the therapist and took a seat next to Nicki in the office. He could tell she was scared but he would be there every step of the way. The session soon began.
"Hello Nicki, Hi SB. How are you guys today?" Dr. Williams asked. Small talk started to fill the room until the serious questions began. "So Nicki, talk to me. How have you been feeling?" Dr. Williams looked up innocently at Nicki hoping to finally get an answer out of her this time. "It's just really difficult for me to accept that something that was supposed to be everything is now gone forever. She was going to be my world. I failed her."
Tears started falling down Nicki's face and all Safaree could do was sit there quietly and watch. He had never seen Nicki talked about the situation yet and this was all new for him. He turned to Dr. Williams and waited for her to say something to make Nicki feel better. Dr. Williams finally spoke. "You didn't fail anyone, you need to come to realization with this Nicki or you will never be able to come over the situation." Nicki grabbed a few tissues and replied back to her with an angry tone. "Who was the one who drank while pregnant? Me. Who was the one who stressed herself out, not even thinking about the conseqences it could have on my child? Me. I failed, I killed this innocent baby who did nothing wrong to me. I could have brought a new life into the world but instead I ruined a life. She could have changed the world, she could have changed my world."
There was alot built up in Nicki that needed to be released. Both Dr.Williams and Safaree could see that. Dr.Williams talked to Nicki and gave her advice and a shoulder to cry on. They were now one hour into their session, and Dr. Williams suggested they stayed as long as they needed until things were cleared up, instead of leaving them they way they were. Safaree was quiet the whole time. Didn't say a word, didn't even check his phone or adjust his seat. Just sat there. Tears came to his eyes and he finally spoke.
"Onika? Do you realize seeing you like this breaks me in two? I love you Nicki. I know we say that to eachother all the time, but I love you. I'm in love with you. You're my world and I can't stand to see you broken. It's killing me." Tears were now falling down Safaree and Nicki's face as he continued. "I know you think this is your fault, but you were the best mother you could have been these past 6 months. You dropped everything when you found out you had a baby on the way. Maybe God took her back because he knew you weren't ready? Did you ever think about that Nicki? Just don't do this anymore, seeing you like this....I can't..." Safaree couldn't finish his speech due to his tears. Nicki walked out of her seat and sat on his lap as he laid on her chest crying. With her chin on his head, she did the same. Dr. Williams said nothing because this was excatly what she was waiting for.
Safaree sat back up and spoke to Dr. Williams "I love this girl, I really do." he looked up at Nicki while wiping his tears. "I love you."
Something about his words seemed so different. The way he said those 3 words, Nicki could feel them hit her heart.
"I think we should leave our session off at that. We can all have time to think about everything before we come in next week and discuss how we feel. Especially you two. Stay safe and I will see you next Tuesday." Dr. Williams smiled as them both while walking out of the office. "Let's go." Safaree said while walking out with Nicki behind him. They hopped in their Range Rover as Safaree started driving back to their home. The car ride home was silent. They both didn't know what to say, still mixed in with their thoughtd of what happened at the session. Nicki's phone lit up with a text from Drake.
Drake: "Hey Nic. Everything okay? I miss you, I'm praying for you"
Nicki: "Thank you Drake. Everything is okay, therapy is helping."
Drake: "Good, I will call you tommorow. Goodnight Onika"
Nicki: "Goodnight Aubrey."
Once she sent the last message, she looked up to see Safaree was pulling in the drive-way. Nicki hopped out of the car and walked into the kitchen. She made her and Safaree sandwiches and walked into the living room handing Safaree his sandwich. They ate them togheter while watching Judge Judy, still not saying a word. Once Nicki finished her meal, she threw her plate in the trash, walked over to Safaree, hugged him and kissed him on he cheek. Without any words being spoken she walked into her room to call it a night. She had alot of thinking to do..alot of BIG decisions were needed to be made.

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After-math of Destruction.

The next morning was heart-breaking. There wasn't a sound in the condo. It was just starting to hit Safaree and Nicki that the baby is gone before it was even born. Nicki's room was still locked and she still wasn't responding to anyone, so Safaree decided to cook her breakfast, hoping the smell would make her come out of her room. Safaree made Nicki's favorite breakfast: cheesy scrambled eggs, chocolate chip pancakes, turkey sausage, bacon, and a fruit salad. He sat on the couch waiting for Nicki to come out of her room, then his phone lit up with a twitter post from Nicki. It read:
"Goodmorning barbz. Yesterday was a horrifying day. I had a mis-carriage. I lost my baby while I was 6 months pregnant, she meant everything to me. And yes, it was a girl. Nobody knew that I knew the sex of the baby, I wanted to keep it a suprise. I am heart-broken she has left my life. Just trying to see the positivty in every negative situation, it's very difficult. Be thankful to open your eyes to another day. Love you TM, xo. -HB."
The tweet brought tears to Safaree's eyes, but he quickly wiped them way and set down his phone when he heard Nicki come from around the corner.
"Nicki! Goodmorning!" Safaree said. He tried sounding as heart-felt as possible. He was going to be everything to make her feel better. The first thing he noticed were her swollen eyes from crying and the frown that was stuck on her face. He has seen Nicki at her absolute worse..but it's never been this bad.
"I made us breakfast Nic." he started moving all the food from the stove to the kitchen table.
"Thank you Safaree." Nicki replied in a very quiet low tone, her voice was crackly and it almost sounded like she was whispering.
Once they sat to eat, there was no conversastion going on, which was un-normal for the two. Safaree didn't know what to say, he felt like anything he said would relate back to the baby, which was the last thing he wanted to bring up. He looked at Nicki to see she was playing with her food on her plate, not really eating much. She got up from the table as she started walking up the stairs to the nursery room they had just finished designing, Safaree followed right behind her. If he was going to be there for Nicki like he promised Drake and like the good bestfriend he is, he was going to be there every step of the way. He leaned on the door of the nursery room as he watched Nicki take down everything she worked on. Safaree could do nothing but watch the tears roll down Nicki's face as she threw all the sheets, pillows, stuffed animals, diapers, gifts, socks, etc. in the corner of the room.
At this point, Nicki was laying in the middle of the room trying to catch her breathe from all the tears. Safaree sat next to sit and picked her up. He sat in the rocking chair they built together and put Nicki on his lap. As she was sitting on his lap, she was ripping off all the wallpaper designs printed on the wall.
"Nicki, stop." Safaree said in a low calm tone. He could feel the pain in her heart. She continued to rip the wall-paper. "Nicki." he said, in the same tone. She started banging on the wall with her fists, Safaree grabbed her arms and laid her in his chest while she hysterically cried. He shirt was drenched in her tears, but he didn't mind. As long as she was in his arms, he felt as if he was protecting her..that's all he wanted to do.
About 10 minutes later, Safaree tried getting Nicki to talk.
"Nic, are you gonna talk to me?"
Nicki simply stood up and left the room, he followed her once again, but she walked into her room and locked the door, leaving Safaree outside. He took a deep breathe and started to clean the kitchen while waiting for Nicki. That same say he canceled any plans/apperances that Nicki had planned for the next few weeks. Everybody was very understanding.
But 3 days had passed and nothing had changed.
Nicki would wake up, have a few bites of breakfast Safaree made for her..then walk back into her room. The only thing Safaree could hear were Nicki's sobs that echoed through the house and her daily phone calls to her mom.
Safaree picked up the phone and called Drake.
Drake: "Hi man! How's everything? Nic feeling better?"
Safaree could tell Drake sounded different, more sad than usual. He could tell the loss of the child was affecting him.
Safaree: "I wish man. She's been really depressed. She hasn't talked to me about it at all, I've been trying to get her to open up but she just won't. I'm going to give her doctor a call and see what I can do. How are you man? You doing okay?"
Drake: "Ah man, please call the doctor. Maybe he will know what to do to help her. I just want her to be okay. And I'm okay, I could be better."
Safaree: "I will Drake, don't worry. I'll send you texts and call you soon to keep you updated. Just keep your head up, it's going to be okay."
Drake: "Thank you Safaree, I'll talk to you soon."
The phone call ended and Safaree called the doctor soon after. The doctor told Safaree that Nicki isn't responding because she is going through depression, which is what is expected with mis-carriages. He told Safaree he needs to take her to therapy sessions because it's not healthy for her to be depressed and stressed for this long. So that's excatly what Safaree did. He scheduled Nicki an appointment with a thearapist for tommorow afternoon at 2:30. He walked into Nicki's room to tell her.
"Hey Nic." Safaree said. He got no response from Nicki. He took a deep breathe as he watched her laying in bed. He spoke again. "I spoke with your doctor and he told me what you're doing is unhealthy and that you needed to see a thearapist. So I scheduled you an appointment for tommorow at 2:30 to see one of the BEST thearapists in LA." He stood at the end of Nicki's bed as he waited for a response. "Okay?" Safaree asked after no reply from Nicki.
"Okay Safaree." Nicki said in a melacholony tone. She grabbed another tissue and wiped her nose and eyes. Safaree pulled up a chair and sat in Nicki's room with her. It was completely silent, but he didn't mind. As long as he was showing Nicki he wasn't going anywhere. He sat in the chair until they both fell asleep.
The next morning struck as the sun woke up Safaree through Nicki's window. He opened his eyes to see Nicki's bed empty. Then he turned around and noticed she was already out of bed and in the shower, getting ready for her thearapy appointment. Safaree could tell Nicki was ready for this, she was finally ready to open up. He ran into the shower and got ready as well, because it was NOT something he wanted to miss.

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Stress kills.

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Nicki was finally adjusting to a new lifestyle. She had a new diet, a new daily plan, and a new perspective. She was starting enjoy this new life she lived. Nicki and Drake we're still working on things, but they weren't back in a relationship yet, and SB and Nicki were still the best of friends. Drake would visit Nicki almost everyday, and had been going to every doctor appointment with her.
About a month later, Nicki was going to see the doctor again, the 3rd time seeing the doctor in a week. She was DYING to see him because she had been having un-bearable pains in her stomach. She couldn't eat, couldn't move, and the pains stressed her out..which her doctor told her she should NOT be doing. Nicki laid on her bed and waited until Drake picked her up, she didn't even have the strength to get ready for the doctor's appointment. SB walked in her room.
SB: "How are you feeling Nic? Any better?"
Nicki: "No."
She began crying once again. She was emotional, moody, stressed, and in pain but SB was always there to help. He laid in bed next to her, nose to nose as he rubbed her cheek.
SB: "It's gonna be okay. You got me, I'm not going anywhere. I love you Nic, I do. Very much."
Nicki started crying even more, but this time they were tears of joy. She smiled as she moved closer to Safaree, he leaned into Nicki as he softly pecked her lips. He pulled away and looked at Nicki, waiting for a reaction. Nicki grabbed his cheeks and pulled him in for more. She slipped her tounge into his mouth and enjoyed every second of it. She had been horny for weeks, and this made her even more horny. SB started moving his hand under her pants, feeling on her clit through her underwear, this immdiately made Nicki wet.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
"Fuck." Nicki said. She pulled away and ran over to the door while adjusting her hair and wiping her lips. She opened the door to find Drake standing there with a smile.
"APPOINTMENT NUMBER 3, LET'S DO IT!" He said with a smile. His positive attitude always made Nicki laugh. She turned around as she winked at SB and walked out with Drake.
SB sat on the couch, more confused than ever. Last time he hooked up with Nicki, they were drunk..and it meant nothing. But this time, they were both sober..and they both felt a spark when their lips touched. Safaree didn't know what to make of it, but he just waited until Nicki brought it up, he didn't want it to be like what happened with them last time. He loved Nicki, he wouldn't do anything to get back to that point.
Meanwhile, Nicki finally pulled up to the doctor's office. She jumped out of the car straight to the room she was assigned to every two weeks. She patiently waited for the doctor as she explained the pains she felt to Drake and he researched them on his phone. Finally the doctor walked in.
Doctor: "Okay Ms.Maraj. I see you have un-bearable pains in your stomach daily, which isn't normal. I'm going give you an ultra-sound and see if everything is healthy with the baby." He leaned Nicki back as he squirted the blue cold gel on her baby bump. The coldness made her giggle..but the doctor's facial expressions made her smile fade away. She saw the distraught look on his face when he was looking at the scans.
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj I am going to need to do a CAT Scan on your stomach, please follow me this way."
At this point, Nicki was terrified, she didn't understand what the big deal was. She started getting teary eyed as Drake grabbed her hand, walking her into the room to get CAT scanned. Once they walked in the room, the doctor brought a few other nurses with him to do the tests. Nicki laid on the scanner as X-Rays were being taken. About 30 minutes later, the doctor came in with answers for Nicki and Drake.
Nicki: "What happened? Please, I've been stressing out while you make me wait here."
Doctor: "Ms.Maraj, there is no easy way for me to say this...(he took a deep breathe as he gave the X-Rays to Nicki)...you've had a mis-carriage, I believe it was due to the amount of stress you had. You lost your baby. I am truly sorry."
He rubbed her shoulder as Nicki stared at the floor. She was completely numb, completely in shock, she could feel the beating of her heart come out of her ears, the pain of her stomach took over her body. She was broken.
The doctor left the room, he let Drake know the pains should go away within the next week, and to keep her as calm as possible.
Drake walked over to Nicki and tried talking to her, but she was speechless. She grabbed her phone and purse and walked straight to the car. The whole way home was silent. Nicki was in tears at this point, she couldn't process her feelings or express them.
Drake opened Nicki's condo and walked her to her room, she was still speechless. She closed and locked the door as Drake walked back to the couch and told SB the horrifying news.
Drake also explained to SB that he needed to keep Nicki calm and stress-free because she was already risking her health by stressing out. Drake was going to be traveling the next few weeks to finish the final touches on his album, so he told SB to please take care of her and he will try visiting and calling as much as possible. He wrote Nicki a note telling her how much he loved her and how sorry he was. He stuck it under her door as he left the condo, in tears, he lost his baby before he could even look into it's beautiful eyes.